My experiences leading to a cuckold/femdom dynamic.

[bayman]

Alright so this is going to be a story about how I became the cuckolded slave to my wife that I am today.

I'm going to start with a summary of a back story to help everyone understand my journey.

The real beginning was at about age 14, when I realized boys younger then me were much bigger and starting to get public hair. Having my parents and doctors talk about how I might have to look at something to Kickstart my puberty.

It was about age 16 or 17 that I began puberty as I hadn't seen growth in size nor any pubes to that age and also had my first ogasm then too. Anyways, I avoided Amy situation that would let people see me naked, no changerooms or sex with girls, nothing.

Friends started thinking I was gay because I wouldn't sleep with girls who wanted to, I always played the quality over quantity card though. There were 2 occasions, when I was drinking that I let my guard down and overall it wasn't anything crazy enough to talk about aside from giggles. Though my eagerness to pleasure them typically "made me a good lay". Even though drunk, I avoided getting naked and ensured no lights were on and used my hands and mouth to pleasure them while stopping them for reaching for my dick, they thought I was teasing them and it added to the suspense.

First time I tried to penetrate a girl, I was drunk and she stopped me. She was nice and just told me to go back to eating her pussy and she would suck me off though when she put her hand around my dick to start sucking, I came and she didn't even suck me. The other girl hadn't had sex before and was saving herself, kept saying she wanted to suck my dick and trying to pull it out of my underwear as I stopped her. Eventually she stopped me and turned the light on and said for me to drop my pants or she was leaving because I was hiding something.

I swore I wasn't and eventually said I was small and shy about it and she convinced me to let her see. I did and she started sucking me immediately and said she wanted me to fuck her. I remember her saying she didn't want her first time to hurt and was scared about sex but I would be great for her first time. Well we tried for a good 2 minutes but she kept saying I wasn't in and then I came all over her pussy and she got really upset with me and then started making fun of me but also complimented me on eating her out. So after those experiences, I really was embarrassed.

Around 19 or 20 is when my online exploration of sexuality came. Because I was very nervous about in person situations I was able to have some conversations with many great people and eventually open up to a few, though remaining anonymous.

At one point I came across a woman about 10 years older then me who I eventually confided in about having a very small penis. I wouldn't share pics or anything as back then such things were still a bit taboo. She ended up convincing me to meet her and promising to teach me to pleasure a woman without needing a dick though assuring me that she thought I'm not as small as I claim.

Well I met her and she was very dominant and demanding. When I first got there she wanted me to strip naked and talk to her for a while before anything happened. I refused and regretted going there but was turned on at the same time when she started saying that she loves punishing disobedient little boys.

She told me to either get undressed or lay across her lap otherwise I should just leave. I chose to lay across her lap and before laying down she cuffed my hands in front of me and made me lay on top of them.

She held me down and pulled my pants down to bare my ass. I tried to stop her but hands cuffed and her hold on me didn't help. She began spanking me and they were hard and hurt. They were quick so I don't know how many she gave me but not many before I was squirming and telling her to stop. She kept going as she asked me if I was going to obey and understood how grateful I should be for her willing to teach me how to pleasure a woman and how we agreed this wasn't about my own pleasure.

I was agreeing to obey her and get naked long before she stopped spanking me. She was telling me I needed to learn to obey so she would stop when she felt it was enough. When it ended she stood me up, pants still down past my butt, she told me to put my hands up and as i did, she pulled my pants and underwear down and my hands shot down to cover myself but before I could she had a grip on my privates and squeezed so hard I screemed but little came out. She told me to keep my hands above my head, still cuffed, so I obeyed.

She took what felt like forever poking and prodding my penis in silence but with this big grin on her face. "You have a baby dick" are her first words as she struggled not to laugh. She had me sit down and then pretty much made fun of my dick a bunch and how pathetic it was. She then blindfolded me and made me eat her ass and pussy and use toys on her. Saying I don't deserve to see her naked or touch her body.

Eventually she gave me a choice, she said she would only jerk me off if I let her punish me as much as she wanted. She wouldn't suck me and was no point in offering sex. I agreed to it but then chickened out before she started. She kicked me out.

I avoided sex all together for a while and just chatted anonymously online with people and browsed alot, finding sites like getdare. I eventually met this girl on a local dating app who was very kinky and this interested me a bit now after my experiences. She told me about a site called fetlife and I created an account and we began chatting there.

Because it was anonymous, we didn't know who each other were, we could be open and honest. She told me how she loved to be dominated, while blindfolded and teased. How she liked a guy to use toys on her as opposed to just sex, etc. It probably took a couple months of chatting before she learned about my experiences and that I was small.

She actually took an interest in this, claiming that she was dominant with women and submissive with men, only because she wanted to submit to men and have them ravish her. A guy with a small dick would be fun to dominate because she has no interest in fucking him. We talked lots about how much more she would do then the dominant woman I told her about. This girl was really turned on from the punishing and humiliating though and didn't care about getting eaten out like the woman did.

Eventually it got to point where this girl wanted to see pics. I kept refusing, whether it was a clothed face pic or a closeup of my dick. I just wasn't open to it at all. She knew I was now getting turned on from all of it and eventually convinced me to send her a pic of me in underwear with no face, so she could at least confirm I wasn't some old pervert. So I agreed though wore boxers so couldn't see much.

Well she didn't respond right away but here's why.

I rented an apartment in a small building and became friends with a couple who lived in a lower level unit. They had recently broken up and she later expressed her interest in me which I rejected, as you all now understand why but she didn't. She was offended and things got weird and we stopped talking.

2 weeks later I get a text from her saying for me to come downstairs because she needed to talk to me. This was the same time I was waiting for the girl on fetlite to respond to my pic.

Not sure if you connected the dots but what a coincidence. I got down there and sit on her couch and she has a big grin on her face as she looks at her computer screen. As I go to ask her whats so funny, I see my picture up on her screen.

I was speechless and she first said she didn't know how to tell me but wanted to see my face when I realized which she claimed was priceless. I just sat there quiet and it was very awkward for a period before she started asking me questions about our conversations.

I remember being very uncomfortable but answering the questions before she said she wanted to see how small I really was. I flat out refused and told her I wouldn't and she tried to convince me, reminding me how she knew of my experiences that I admitted turned me on alot.

So when trying to convince me didn't work she started threatening me. Saying she would tell everyone about everything and at first I said I would deny it but she went back to the pic saying I'm the dumbass who took a pic with my family pictures on a shelf in the background which is clear it's me.

So once again I was standing in front of a female demanding I strip naked but this time there was no choice. All I remember is her "oh no" reaction pulling her hands up to her mouth and then saying she was really hoping I was exaggerating.

I went to cover myself but she told me to put my hands behind my back and let her inspect it. I was rock hard at this point and she started tugging on it saying she wanted to see how big it gets. After a minute or so she asked me if it gets any bigger.

I did one of those "haha" and asked if I could pull my pants back up but she immediately did first rule is I have to always be naked when at her place. There was some back and fourth but she ultimately made me accept that we were going to do what we had talked about online, that she was going to make me her slave.

She said if I obeyed her and accepted being her slave that she wouldn't tell any of my friends, only hers. This made me very nervous because we did have some friends in common including her best friend who she knew I liked as that was my excuse for rejecting her.

So I begged and pleaded she didn't tell anyone and she knew my biggest fear was her telling the girl I liked. So she agreed she wouldn't tell the girl but will tell others as punishment for my disobedience when necessary. I wouldn't agree but she said if I don't she tells everyone including her friend, so again I had no choice.

So first couple days weren't super eventful but I was naked and we talked about alot of what we did online, though this time she could see my reactions. Much of it was the same but some things were new. Like her wanting me to know what it's like to be fucked. Saying if she made me hard from anal, she would make me suck a dick.

Not long before she was using beads in my ass and she had me hard from it and made me agree to sucking a cock which I reluctantly did not thinking she would really follow through with it.

It was the very next day I arrived at her apartment and her classmate was there, this gay guy she found super hot. Well I figured she has guest so I stay clothed, nope, she reminded me of the rule and said I'll be punished once naked. I was shocked she said that in front of him but he said he knows I have a tiny dick and one of the reasons he is there, the other was to shoot a load down my throat.

Well not only did I get naked and have to compare to his monstrous cock, I had to suck it too. It got to the point where he started jerking himself off saying I was never going to get him there and she tried to take over but he would let her, saying he would get close and then finish in my mouth. Well he got close and put his tip in my mouth and I started gagging from the precum. I immediately pulled out of his cock but he came at the same time landing on my face a bit but mostly back on his cock.

I was then forced to lick his cock clean as she told me how I was facing some severe punishments for breaking rules and then ruining his orgasm. Then she looked down at my dick and seen me with a boner. Noting nobody touched my dick, not even me, she started calling me a fag and saying I clearly love cum and that now I am going to start taking cum in both ends.

He left and she tied me up spread eagle for a few hours. In that time she spanked me ass and privates many times, making me actually cry each session. Over the next couple months she started taking lots of pics of me naked and even had me meet a few other guys here and there, all of which I was forced to suck off and a couple peed on me or in my mouth.


Her schooling was about to finish and this meant she would be moving back home so she decided to expose all the pics on Tumblr page and told me I needed to take a dick in my ass and cum inside before she moved away, otherwise when she moves she would block all contact with me and leave the Tumblr up permanently.

I attempted 2 times with her there, the second time the guy actually penetrated me but I stopped him not long after. Unfortunately she moved away and kept true to her words and left me exposed. Luckily Tumblr deleted the page.

About a year or two after that, I met a beautiful girl, 18 and petite and started dating. I was open with her about my experiences in the past and also open to doing anything she fantasized about. I explained though the experiences I had weren't intended, the humiliation really turned me on. She wasn't very interested though as she was like most girls, wanting to be dominated and not see her man dominated.

Well she was young, inexperienced and very open minded and we did lots of kinky things. Me fucking her was actually very limited. I used toys on her, even had a dildo that went over my cock, ate her out constantly. Over the years though, I got very lazy. That and having 2 kids, our sex eventually stopped all together.

That was about 4 years ago now. For those first 2 years of no sex, she kept claiming it was her going through things that had nothing to do with me. That she was turned off by anything sexual with anyone.

After 2 long years my patience was wearing thin, thinking there was something wrong with us. One night she was at her parents house with the kids and she called me saying we needed to talk. It was a lengthy talk at first that got nowhere. Mostly her reassuring me she loves me and doesn't want to hurt me. Then she explained she was caught sexting by her sister who told her mom and her mom told her to tell me.

So she did. She explained that she has been horny and interested in sex but not with me, at all. That she didn't want to say anything because she didn't want to hurt me but going so long without made her want and she went online.

She explained my dick had always been too small for her. That it was all the foreplay and toys which satisfied her needs but not only did I get lazy, but she also felt like she needed real cock, not toys.

So I asked her is she was saying she wanted to cuckold me and she was unaware what it was. I explained what it was and she responded that she is already doing it. This is when she realized the humiliation that turned me on was her only having to be honest with me about my penis being too small and cuckolding me all doesn't hurt me, it turns me on.

That's when she started wanting to know details about all my past experiences and she was most turned on from the girl threatening to expose me while making me only serve men and not get to see girls naked.

Well my wife told me she wanted to do exactly that. I tried explaining that it doesnt work like that. That I didn't want those experiences, I was forced. Had no choice but to obey. That's when she said it's the same situation, I have no choice.

We argued a bit before she made it clear that after our conversation and her understanding everything, I needed to accept that I not only wouldn't see her naked ever again but she will never even jerk me off again, let alone suck or fuck me.

I wouldn't agree but she said I didn't need to agree, I just needed to accept it. I asked if she was threatening to tell others things if I don't obey and she said no. She said me not seeing her naked or her not pleasuring my dick is her choice to make not mine. She then said she's not saying she will tell people if I don't obey because she plans on telling people.

She explained how her mom and sisters look at her as a cheater but telling them how small I am and that we are trying a kinky dynamic would make them understand, as she had already apparently told them she thinks I'm bi.

She told me the idea of people finding out how tiny of a dick I have really excited her, thinking about how it will make me feel. That she wants people to know she's OK to fuck anyone because we are both consenting since I can't satisfy her.

She has not only had conversations and outted me to people but she has also found heavy interest in seeing me exposed online. She has also made me suck a couple cocks and get humiliated by one girl. I have not been pleasured and cum from anything other than my own hand in nearly 4 years, almost 2 years since that talk.

I'm not allowed to know if she fucks someone or what they do though. She made me understand she isn't wanting that part to humiliate me, it has nothing to do with me. It's for her pleasure, something I can't help with.

Feel free to ask me to elaborate on anything you like.

[Sex Speed Runner]

How do your experiences make you feel?

As a submissive male myself who gets turned on by the idea of humiliation, it sounds like the perfect fantasy scenario. However I wouldn’t actually want to live that way. I find SPH and premature ejaculation are similar. Neither can fully satisfy a woman, and can lead to being humiliated. But im so much happier knowing that my GF is okay with my PE, which whilst its still an issue id like to fix, i know i don’t necessarily have to to live a ‘normal’ life with a ‘normal’ relationship.

Would you of rather found someone who accepted you for your small dick, or even enjoyed the fact it was small but not because they could make fun of you?

Looking back what would you like to have done differently.

[bayman]

Oh she did accept me. It was only once she realized that I was turned on from her honesty and learning that she could do alot with it she would enjoy that we ended up doing this. I was always honest with her, so in part, she did things because she knew it was my fantasy.

I feel extremely lucky and very excited to have the opportunity to do this with her as I was content leaving it all as fantasy, which at times I kind of do question myself as to whether it should have remained fantasy.

The experiences I had before meeting her, I definitely enjoyed when looking back on it though it was terrifying and difficult in the moment as I didn't really seek out the kink, just took advantage of open minded people who were able to get excited about me being small instead of being disappointed. Lol.

Those experiences are definitely what made the humiliation a turn on I think, maybe it was my way of turning trauma into something I could enjoy.