I need dares and tasks that will help break me as a man & reinforce the sub in me

[Limass]

Hello,

I'm looking to build a "you're not so special day'" games with dares and tasks for myself...and maybe others... and I'd like some ideas and general input to make it better...

The main idea is to build a come up with a series of rules that will make mefeel humiliated for a whole day and pathetic at the end.

First an introduction:
I'm a disabled man with cerebral palsy and I move around in a wheelchair.
I have been in a straight relationship from 20 to 33. Once over I began to watch harder and harder porn, and slowly began to try what I was seeing... I started to practice bdsm and fetishes by myself, and after a while I offered myself to doms online from time to time.
It got me addicted to the point that when I had the occasion to sleep with a woman again, I couldn't perform because there was no humiliation involved.
Now I can't cum with humiliation or a bit of pain.

I should had that I've always been fascinated with cocks but not attracted to men and that I've always doubt my ability to seduce and please women:I don't like my body, I think my cock is too small (on top of not being able to get a proper erection without humiliation). The only asset I think I have is I'm smart.

My goal now, and the idea behind this "not so special days" is to break the straight male in me and have me giving up the idea of seducing a woman for good. It's also to get me more addicted to humiliation and abuse. Using my disability for this is OK and event wished for.

A the end of one if those day I should:

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Feel weak, dumb and controlled by my lust.
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feel dirty, both psychologically and physically
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Not feel like I have spend the day as a human but more as an animal.
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Feeling less of a straight male who is able to please women.
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Being convinced that's it's all my fault and have less respect for myself.
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Being more convinced that my sex life should only be about being used, abused, humiliation and pain.





Here's what I want to experience doing this:

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All day long I will have to do things that will both turn me on and disrupt my day (work, daily life tasks, social life etc…), tasks that will make it hard to focus on what I have to do as an responsible adult and will have me struggling to achieve what I need to do. They should not make it impossible, just harder and harder, until I just can’t think about anything else and fail to be a responsible adult. Sex should permeate my daily life. I tend to want to separate them but I should learn to never forget i’m a slut.
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Most of the tasks and dares should to be decided by chance: Pure chance (like when using dice rolls or logic (if X happens, I have to do Y) and such, or chance + human intervention. This could be asking someone else to decide for me, or me having some kind of control over chance, like playing a game on my phone and the tasks I have to perform depends on my score. What’s great about the latest is I’m under the impression I can control it, and I have a way to avoid the things I don’t want to do… but if the rules are set up right, I may end up failing at some point, which zill make me feel as a loser.
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I should earn the pleasure I get, paying for it with pain or humiliation.
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I'd like to have way to not doing some tasks I really don't want to or can't, but if I choose to do so, I'll have to do something else in exchange that have a lot of chances to be worst.
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End the day with a 100% sex session during which I'l humiliate and torture myself while edging.



Of course, this is not new and I already did this and already have some interesting rules:
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Play some porn all day long, starting as soon as I wake up. I roll a dice to decide of the movie genre.
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I can go to the toilet only at specific times. If I fail to respect this, I must pee in a glass and drink it.
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I must eat with the help of my hands.
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Not cleaning at all during the day (this is the kind of stuff I needa plan B for, in case I have to meet someone... a plan B that I'll regret.
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Masturbating each time I'm on the phone with someone.



I hope you'll get the idea.
Let's start with general ideas for tasks and dares. Once I have some we'l decide on the details and I'll write up the rules.

I'll stop for know but feel free to ask me anything so you can get to know me better and give me better dares.
Thanks.

[Limass]

no one want to help ?

[dzbll]

Every 10 min you must stop and punch each ball 2 times hard.
Every 30 min you must edge

[Limass]

Thanks Sir, I'll add these to the list.

I received other rules, here they are:
- I have to eat without using my hands
- I can't wash any parts of my body
- Whenever I receive a phone call, I have to masturbate during the call. I can't stop, not even for a second. If I cum doing this, I'll have to hit my balls 30 times.
-I can only go to the restroom on plain hour. I have to hold it until then.If I can't and have to pee, I must pee in a glass and drink it.
- Each hour, I have to roll a dice and I have to drink the number of glass of water it gives me.