Please destroy me

[yjpmusm20]

I’m a 21 y/o small dick loser, and I get off on the idea of people hurting me/hurting myself. The only problem is I always pussy out. I never hit my balls as hard as I want, and always half ass everything I do to punish myself. So for that, I think I deserve an incredibly harsh punishment. I need to be hurt beyond the point that it’s no longer hot. I want to cry. I just need ideas/encouragement.

I don’t have any toys, other than a couple sounding rods and a medium butt plug. But I will use anything I can find in the house/grocery store, and I might be willing to buy some toys-depending on how this goes.

Please don’t hold back. I will try my best to push through any reservations I have, but I need punishments that are hard to back out of. Hurt my dick, hurt my balls, hurt my asshole, my nipples, my throat, hell beat me senseless and leave me covered in bruises. Whatever you think I deserve.

Limits: Face, real life exposure, blackmail, scat, blood