couples_unicorn

So far I've accepted that I'm going to need to work towards spending at least a year in chastity to prove my willingness to spend the full relationship locked up. I also realise that I'm going to need to be feminised in many ways such as being trained to be a good housewife and take care of the house as this is probably what i'll spend most of my timing doing to let my master and mistress spend more time doing what they want to do. Then when I am roped into serving in the bedroom, its only to humiliate me, degrade me, make me watch and when I'm lucky i get to suck and take rough deep throat since he doesn't find it gay to take sexual pleasure from a man only when you give a man sexual pleasure is it truly gay which giving oral is the ultimate form of it since I will never get true physical gratification.

now that I'm not as horny as when I wrote my previous message I find myself embarrassed and humiliated reading it over not because of what I was willing to do while horny but that I still know it's what I want. I know I'm no where near ready for it yet though which is what brings me here. I would love to hear from doms and subs how I can begin training myself to be worthy of serving two incredible dominants.

I've always had the desire to submit, when i was younger I even thought it would be the best way to get intimate with intelligent, attractive, confident, beautiful women. Through my many years of experience I've discovered how wrong I've been especially when pretending to be dominant has lead to my only success, however this feels even more wrong than my delusional thoughts that I could have any woman I wanted through submissiveness. I've learned that my submission doesn't entitle me to sex, in fact I've come to realise it means the opposite, that if I really want to worship and serve a strong independent woman I need to let her be with the man she finds attractive and even worship him as well. I've always found most things in submission kinky but not something I would do, considering all I wanted was to get off, however upon realising where my place is I'm constantly finding myself fantasising about kinks I once considered too desperate, degrading and beneath me.