just read something you posted which I wonder about "I'm thinking that when I'm ready to get really serious with my bf, I probably won't need to be a sub." If you crave BDSM it wont go away, unless you using the sub bit to mask something?
Hey! You have a great forum going there. I love the fact that it's non fiction and you give your writing depth. I also find it very applaudable that you aren't afraid to show your bond with your brother. Keep writing!