I'm so sorry about your dog. I know how hard it is.
If you ever want to talk about it, I'm here for you. We can swap black lab stories sometime, if you think it would help. I have a black lab of my own, and we've been through a ton. She's only 2, but I've already lost her once (luckily I got her back - the story is on my album about her) so I know how hard it is to deal with losing your bestie My thoughts and prayers are with you. Don't pretend to be okay if you're not.