I actually hate the term topping from the bottom. There is such a stigma attached and I think it holds some submissive back from sharing their thoughts, feelings, wants and needs in a relationship.

I don't know how many times I have been accused of topping from the bottom or a sub has told me that they don't want to share, for fear of being accused of topping from the bottom. Telling my Dom that I want to be spanked or that I want to play with electricity, is not topping from the bottom....

I took the BDSM test today and here are the results. I'll be discussing each of them and how much I agree/identify with them.

== Results from bdsmtest.org ==
100% Dominant
100% Degrader
98% Rigger
94% Sadist
94% Brat tamer
77% Primal (Hunter)
76% Ageplayer
61% Master/Mistress
50% Exhibitionist
49% Masochist
48% Experimentalist
36% Owner
32% Vanilla
8% Voyeur
8% Non-monogamist...

This is the list of the toys my GF and I own and use of me:

Small butt plug
Big vibrating butt plug
Medium Princess plug
Large Princess plug
Cock ring
Anal douche
7-Inch vibrating strapon
9" dildo (suction)
Prostate massager
16" double sided dildo
Padded handcuffs
Ring gag

These are my rules which I must follow:

1. I have to give my GF an orgasm every day
2. I have to fully cross dress 1 full day each week
3. I have to be sitting on my suction dildo while we eat dinner each night
4. I have to eat my cum at least once a week (something I'm not against but I'm not a huge fan of)
5. I have to spend an efternoon tanning in my g-string bikini once every two weeks (providing good weather)
6. My boipussy must be plugged when not in use...

Looking for ways to ground, center, and/or reset myself. My usual method (scenes) is not available and meditation/asmr/hypnosis dont really help. Advice?

I must refer to myself as subby in this blog.

Subby lost a battleships game by 7 ships to subboyj and, in return, must complete 7 tasks. This blog keeps track of Subby’s progress.

Comment (and additions) welcome/encouraged

DAY 1

Tasks remaining
(1)+(2) Edge 3 times a day to a pic of Subby’s cock for 7 days (1/7 competed)
(3) Watch 10 mins of porn a day without touching cock for 7 days (0/7 competed).
(4-7) Tasks tbc....

Sir and I are trying new things. Monday saw some patient/doctor roleplay... something which sees a "follow-up" appointment next Monday so I will explain all then. I have also earnt a new name which now sits pretty above my cunt - it is Cuntslime.

Last night saw some stricter overnight bondage. We have experimented with bondage before overnight but this was a lot more risky as there was a chance of rope getting caught and circulation cut off.

Task 17
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