Motivated by sexyred92’s blog post about her uncle and his fight with depression, I thought I’d share some words to anyone who has ever felt alone, like there is no one and that they feel like it will never get better or they will never be loved or have friends or have a home or have a future. You feel like you are trapped in a plain white box that is slowly closing in on you until you are nothing.

I was one of them.

I was trapped in a plain white box, ready to give up on...

I was nervous that night, that much I remember clearly. He and his wife were nice and had watched me casually try out impact with a friend. They'd both said I had a nice ass and shortly after that, he started texting me.

They were looking for a girl to add to their dynamic and I was very new, so he talked about doing an impact scene with me, my first scene. There's a huge difference between the types of things I'd done previously and what he was asking to do. Sceneing is much more intense,...