Day 16: Due to work craziness for both of us, I haven't had any playtime since my last update, untill today. I was instructed to "wear something in your ass tonight. No lingerie, fully naked, and use any means to give yourself three orgasms between now and bedtime" I was also told to wear "something pinch-y" on my nipples and to imagine his cock taking my holes the entire time.

After dinner and a shower, I inserted a small, metal anal hook into my ass, put on my jingle...

Day 7: Today I told him that my only plan for the day was going to the gym. I was instructed to use a toy of my choice when I went to the gym but if I chose one that could make me cum, I would of course have to ask before doing so. I chose my Lovense Vulse because the toys that can make me cum are a bit to loud and bulky, they would be noticeable. For those that don't know, the Vulse is like the Lush but thrusts instead of vibrates. I of course also wore nipple jewelry as I was leaving my house for something...

I am not a submissive, but I do enjoy giving up control sometimes. Due to stresses in my life where I have had to be the one making decisions and being in control of so much, I decided to give up control of my orgasms for the rest of February to a special online friend.

With his permission, I will be documenting my experience of letting him control my sexual play the rest of this month here in this blog post. I am writing this on day 4 of 19 days of him being in control.

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I completed this session on my fucking machine.

The session was a total of 3 hours and 44 minutes with 2 hours and 34 minutes of anal fucking and 1 hour 10 minutes in my pussy.

I also had my nipples clamped for 15 minutes at a time for a total of 105 minutes (only 70 were required based on the outcome of the thread). I also had a lovense lush on my clit for the duration of the session.

I put on my harness that goes around my knees and behind my neck, to...

I love posting links for my Lovense toys. I love having strangers control my pleasure/torment. However, I no longer add people to the app unless I have chatted with them for awhile and built trust that they will respect my boundaries.

Lately, I have had guys use the links, but when I won't give them my app username, they hound me for it and when I stick to my no, they just end the session or leave the session.

Not taking no for an answer is EXACTLY why I don't give out...

So I posted a thread requesting people comment to add time to my dildo gangbang; each comment was to specify ass, pussy, mouth, or tits. Each comment with one of those words added 2 minutes of me fucking a dildo with that part of my body. The thread was open for 24 hours.

I ended up with 14 minutes of ass fucking, 10 minutes each of pussy fucking and blowjob, and 4 minutes of titty fucking.

I "warmed up" earlier in the day by binding myself in a kneeling position...

Earlier this year, I started smoking again after having quit 2 years earlier. I want to quit again but the cravings are incredibly difficult to cope with. So I thought I might reach out to the wonderful users of GD for some help.

I need ideas to distract me during cravings. Preferably, stimulating, enjoyable things I can do when the cravings hit.

I am also open to suggestions for what to do if I give in to the cravings and smoke a cigarette. Clearly these should be things...