A lot of people here are looking for play partners and I wish them luck with this. It can be frustrating when there are so many males and so few females and it takes a while to find someone, or when you think you have found someone only to later realize you don't really click, your needs don't match or they vanish on you.

But just because you are frustrated in your search doesn't make it okay to pester someone who has already politely declined your advances.

If you were...

I have managed to mostly control my anxiety for the last few years or at least work through it and handle it relatively well the majority of the time. That changed just before Christmas last year when I was laying in bed one night and quite by accident found a small lump in my right boob. All sorts of scenarios ran through my head that night. Because it was around Christmas time I couldn't see my doctor immediately and had to wait for a week before I was able to go into the surgery and have him check...

My past mirror:

I think I am ugly. Unintelligent. Not worth it. Broken beyond repair. I think that I'm too fat. That my hair isn't pretty enough. That I'm not helpful, not kind, not funny, not a good friend or sub or domme or parent. That I don't deserve good things. That I don't deserve love or happiness.

His past mirror:

He thinks I am beautiful. Smart. Worth it. That my body is perfect. That my hair is gorgeous. That my face is delicious. That I'm kind,...

Over Easter AM set me a task that involved orgasms and chocolate but then naturally my period started and so we had to wait to complete it. We completed it earlier this week and it was fun and silly and I giggled a lot.

The task was to get a handful of chocolates, put on a blindfold and scatter the chocolates around the room. I would crawl until I found one, eat it (no hands allowed) and then orgasm and repeat until either I had found all the chocolates or I couldn't do any more. (I am...

What It's Doing!

I know that I have not written nothing for over a month. And a lot has changed here in my part of the United States in that period of time. Like other parts of the United States and yes the world as well from the effects of "COVID - 19."

I will just say that it has turned into that worst nightmare and it is not going to stop. Yes, it will not stop until we see and really see the damage that is still to come from it. But the effects are working...

Mr. Devious and I decided to make some kinky gingerbread cookies tonight.


These first ones are a mean scary dom who is holding a delicious metal chain whip. His sub is a darling woman with a leather harness, wrist and ankle cuffs and ball gag.

Our next couple is sexy domme wearing a pink corset, sparkly gstring and heels and her subby is in his cock cage and hood and...

I have realized recently that I have been very very unhappy in many aspects of my life. In the past month, I have realized that I deserve better.

I have thought a lot about a lot of things, and I have finally made some decisions. Tomorrow I am starting the ball rolling on the biggest of these changes.

I am scared ... I don't like the unknown. I don't like the uncertainty of not knowing where I will be a year, 2 years, 5 years from now.

But at the same time,...