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I'm not scared
Posted 07-12-2020 at 02:11 AM by Butterfly
(Please excuse any typos, it's 3 am and I am in bed writing this on my phone)
The other night, I was laying in bed messaging my Dom (oh, by the way, I have a Dom!) and he was teasing me about an idea that has popped into his head. He asked me if I was scared. It took me a moment to answer. My heart was beating, my mind was racing, my mouth was a bit dry (and ok, maybe, just MAYBE my clit was throbbing) ... I was a bit nervous but I wasn't scared.
And I think that is how it should be!
I like to say that I'm scary. I like knowing that people are a bit intimidated by me as a Domme. That I might be a wild card because they don't know what to expect with me. However, I don't ever want my subs (or any play partners) to legit be afraid of me.
I want to push my subs to try new things, so it's ok if they are scared of trying something new. I want them to obey and please me, so it's ok if they are scared to disappoint me. But I don't want them to fear me.
That is where trust comes in.
Although it's only been a few weeks, I already feel the trust building with my Dom. When he teased me with the task, I was nervous in anticipation but I wasn't scared. I knew that whatever the task was, we would talk about it. I knew that my voice would be heard, that I could negotiate and discuss it. I knew that my Dom would be there to help walk me through the task. And on some level, I knew (even though it's so early) that he wouldn't push me to do something that he knew I wasn't ready for.
I'm not afraid .... And it feels really good.
The other night, I was laying in bed messaging my Dom (oh, by the way, I have a Dom!) and he was teasing me about an idea that has popped into his head. He asked me if I was scared. It took me a moment to answer. My heart was beating, my mind was racing, my mouth was a bit dry (and ok, maybe, just MAYBE my clit was throbbing) ... I was a bit nervous but I wasn't scared.
And I think that is how it should be!
I like to say that I'm scary. I like knowing that people are a bit intimidated by me as a Domme. That I might be a wild card because they don't know what to expect with me. However, I don't ever want my subs (or any play partners) to legit be afraid of me.
I want to push my subs to try new things, so it's ok if they are scared of trying something new. I want them to obey and please me, so it's ok if they are scared to disappoint me. But I don't want them to fear me.
That is where trust comes in.
Although it's only been a few weeks, I already feel the trust building with my Dom. When he teased me with the task, I was nervous in anticipation but I wasn't scared. I knew that whatever the task was, we would talk about it. I knew that my voice would be heard, that I could negotiate and discuss it. I knew that my Dom would be there to help walk me through the task. And on some level, I knew (even though it's so early) that he wouldn't push me to do something that he knew I wasn't ready for.
I'm not afraid .... And it feels really good.
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