My denial diary
 

Hi everyone

At 13. Jan. I had an orgasm without even asking for permission, so Master and Mistress put me in denial till the pubes on my labia had grown back (I had to shave them for a task). Normally after 10 days without an orgasm I get very frustrated and start bitching, but since I was sick I went over that point and started to like it somehow.

So I started a poll (please click here) if I should be allowed to cum on Valentines Day - and surprisingly almost 60% voted against an orgasm. Also Master told me that if the "No" will get more votes than all "Yes" combined I'll be put in a chastity belt.

Well, the poll is closed and the result was pretty clear - most girls got flowers and probably a good fuck for Valentines day, I got a chastity belt (I hope it will arrive for the weekend) and no touch. Master already ordered one on Monday, because he could think how the poll would end and according to my list "I really don't want an orgasm"

I want to thank everybody who voted, especially bthomas and naughtylilfemme who advised and motivated me.

In the beginning I won't be belted outside the flat, so Mistress will remove it when she picks me up in the morning. But this also means that she has to watch me while I'm on the toilet, even at school . This way we handled it the last week already. Thank god there are so many restrooms that we can choose the least frequented.

At home I'll be put in my chastity belt again, even when I'm under supervision of Master and Mistress, so I can get used to it. But I'll be unbelted for some time in the evening so I can poop and maintain proper hygiene.
Also I'll get a key for the belt too - in an sealed envelope, same way we handled it with the lock at my septate hymen.
So I can't open the belt without Master and Mistress notice (I have to show them the envelope every day), but if there is an emergency I can remove it.

Day 34 / 1

Well, Mistress was 10 Minutes late in the morning, so I started my morning routine, and on toilet everything was fine yet, but when I went into the shower and start washing myself it just felt too good - I knew I shouldn't do it, but I couldn't stop either :(

Ididn't came since Mistress just came just in time to prevent that I ruined all the efford that had been put in me...

Of course I have to tell Master about this incident and I know my punishment will be harsh - as mucht as he is a gentleman in the streets, as strickt is he when I break the rules.

When Mistress and me got home in the afternoon she shoved me in the flat and removed my clothes roughly. While I was in hurry in the morning I forgot to put a pad in my underwear and it got so soaked that even my jeans got stained. Mistress removed my lock, grabbed my dripping crotch and squeezed it hard before wiping my juice in my face. She told that I'm a disgusting pet and really shouldn't be allowed to wear any piece of clothes ever again.
Then she made me bring a stool, my paddle and the collar with the leash in the hallway and I placed me over it. Then I received a hard paddling and since 60% voted for "No orgasm" she hit my ass 60 times - on each cheek. After that she collared me and tied my hands on my back with the leash.
I had to stay in this position till Master came home while she went to the living room to watch TV. But still she could see me through the open door.

After about half an hour he was entering the flat, carrying a parcel (as you can guess, my belt). He stopped short and looked at me.
I tried to look him in the eyes, but looked down and start crying. Not because I was in pain or want that he'll have mercy with me, but in shame.
Immediately he was at my side, asking me if everything was alright. He even used "Ra" instead of calling me "Pet" which shows me that he was really worried - I think because I never cried before. You know, calling the real names instead of "Master", "Mistress" or "Pet" is stronger than the safeword. Using the safeword means "please don't go any further", using real names means "Stop everything now." At least we handle it this way.

I called him "Master" to show him that everything was fine and told him what happened in the morning. Mistress told him that she already started to punish me and told him that she overslept and was 10 minutes late. Master stopped her and explained that it wasn't her fault since everyone can oversleep sometimes. I was the one to blame for not being able to control myself for lousy 10 minutes.
Master asked Mistress if she could gag me, because he don't want to disturb the neighbours while taming the pet. After I was probably silenced he told me that 38 people at gD voted against my orgasm, plus him and Mistress, which made 40 people I tried to betray.
He untied me and I had to turn around, spread my legs and present my cunt so he could paddle me there. I apologized 40 times.

Afterwards he ordered me to kneel in the bathroom. Since I liked to rub myself during a warm shower I had to rub myself during a warm "shower".
So I start rubbing while he pissed on me, not in the face, but all over my tits. I was panting heavily as he grabbed my face, looked at me and asked:
"Do. You. Wanna. Cum?" I shook my head and muffled through my gag. "No, Master. I want to be a good pet." He spit on me, Mistress took his place and "showered" me too. Then they both watch me edge, while kneeling in a lake of their piss and covered in it.

Then they told me to clean this mess and take a shower afterwards - with water this time.

After that was done I had to stand in the living room while Master put me in my chastity belt - it looks almost like this, bit with two locks (and my fur is showing). Also he ordered me to start a diary to keep people informed about my progress.

I have to admit, the belt is surprisingly more comfortable as I thought, although I have to wear it at almost the smallest setting. Master chose one with a hip band and not a waist band, so I can wear it under my jeans some day. The edges of the hip and crotch bands are complete covered in silicone from the inside and leave enough space, so there is no bare metal directly pressing at my sensitive parts. Master had to do some minor adjustments to the crotch band and front shield, so my fat fanny hill fits inside but it fits so tightly that I'm absolutely not able to touch myself. The crotch band is a bit smaller between my legs so I can walk almost normally. Also it have a slit at my cunt so I can pee and a hole at my ass that I can poop without removing the complete belt. But also there is the possibility to lock some plugs inside me, so I'm not be able to touch my cunt trough my ass hole.

At the moment I kinda enjoy it, but it's just been a few hours, let's see how much I like it in a few weeks ;)

Lover reading your diary! Please keep going! :)

This is absolutely fantastic!

i read your report on the thread about trying to cum, and i'm sad that you felt so bad about it but i'm very glad you have such a good master and mistress taking care of you and teaching you how to be a good pet! hopefully this will turn out to be very good for you :)

I didn't really tried to cum, I wasn't even thinking about - it just felt to good to stop.
But the punishment made sure that I'll think twice before touching me again :o

Very hot, thanks for sharing.

Enjoy your new belt.

Remember that you chose this. I voted to let you cum (once) and I'm still glad you got caught.

Day 35 / 2

During the night I realized that an chastity belt restricted mor than just the acces to my cunt. Normally I'm a side sleeper, but in this position the croth band and front shield were digging in my legs. So I tried to lay on the back and then on the front. In every position I could feel the belt and it took a while to find some sleep.

In the morning I found out that the crotch and secured me so well the my outer labia were squeezed together, which made it almost impossible to pee properly. Master adjusted the belt a bit more till my labia just snuggled, but not squeezed, into the shield. Then I went for another test piss - even it felt unusual first it went very well. Also I learned quickly how to maintain a minimum of hygiene since it's uninevitable for some urine to remain between the shield and the skin. At home I just remove the shower head and wash myself through the holes for the pee, still I have no idea how I could wash myself outside the flat. But since I'll be unbelted for cleaning every evening I don't think that it will become a problem ;)

After I figured out how to wash myself in the belt I got unlocked and prepared myself for the 60th birthday of Masters uncle.

No, I didn't wear the belt because it was quite formal and I was wearing a dress. But I asked for the lock back on my septate hymen - I got it, yay :o.

So that's all for denial day 34 and chastity day 2. We just came home and I got belted again. I hope I can sleep better this night ;)

Very Nice again, please keep this up!😁

Day 35 / 3

While sleeping I tend to take my normal sleeping position, so I woke up several times because it's very uncomfortable when the belt squeezed in the skin between crotch and leg.
But peeing and washing afterwards in the morning went without any difficulties this time, which was nice. My cunt snuggles perfectly inside the crotch band and it's tight enough that there's no way I could touch my labia or even the clit, but nothing rubs or get squeezed. It could be kinda comfortable if it werend for my pubes. They are fully grown back again and tent to get pressed at my labia or get stuck under the belt. This result in, kinda nice but disturbing, itching.

Since the crotch band fits so nicely I almost forgot about it during cooking, but the hip band is always present and while cleaning I found out that I have to turn my whole body and not just the upper part. Also sitting on hard surfaces is not very cosy since the crotch band is pushing the belt upwards then and if you are not carefully you could pinch the skin at the legs.

During the day I tried to find a way to clean myself if I wear the belt to school, it was Mistress who found the solution: By using the douche from my enema kit and a flexible tube. The tube is thin enough to fit through the "pee holes" and with the douche I can push a good amount of water at my cunt to wash away the urine that may be left there. Also this set is small enough to fit in my handbag. But after washing myself there will be always some water left, so I still have to put some pads in my panties - well, I'm used to it.

Because I start to squirm in my belt my owners thought it would be a good idea to make sure I think of something other than the ache locked between my legs. Mistress took of her pants and made me kneel between her legs. I was gazing at her nice smooth pussy and start licking it.
"Good pet, make it nice and wet so I can enjoy your masters cock. This pussy is made for fucking and not meant to locked away like that hairy cunt of yours." From the corner of my eye I cold see Master stroking his cock. When Mistress was ready I turned to Master and took his member in my mouth till it was slick. Mistress pushed me away to plunge on his hard prick with a deep moan.
They don't even look at me, just focusing on their own lust, which made me even more horny.

But I don't know what is worse: watching them while have to edge, knowing that I won't get any release in the end, but at least touch myself, or watching them while not touching at all. It's like having a mosquito bite, after scratching it it mostly itches more or not scratching it till the itching slowly drives you insane.

Till they had finished my "whore juice" was oozing through the "piss holes" of the belt - I love getting humiliated like this. It make me want even more what I can't get :o

In the evening I was pooping the first time trough my belt.
If I sit very straight the belt doesn't get dirty, but whipping afterwards is a bit of a challenge because the hole in the belt is to small to get the whole hand in.
But after pooping Master removed the belt and placed me in the shower. I stood there, legs apart, hands at the wall and waited for Mistress. She washed me and made extra sure that I'm clean between my legs :o. Afterwards she dried me and put me back in my belt till tomorow.

So, the day went pretty good, but two things I hadn't thought about:
1) My pubes: When the long hair of my fur is pressed against my labia they start to feel itching, normally I simply adjust my panties, with the belt this is not possible. I hope I can learn to ignore it since this make my denial even worse :(.
2) My wetness: Usually it get sucked in the pads or panties, or when I'm at home I just let it drip. Now it keeps in the belt till it leaks though the "piss holes" or make the whole front shield slippery when I bend forward.

Thank you for writing this story/diary. I like it a lot. Yet somehow you've made me feel sort of bad. I mean, I kinda want you to have some relief soon (orgasm) :p

this is a fantastic diary :cool:

Being in denial make me work for my reward harder, instead of taking it for granted, and somehow I feel like a child waiting for a long wanted present, I really like the anticipation because is so intense. Even though my cunt is disgustingly wet by now ;)

So, please don't feel bad for me - I don't want an orgasm since it helps me to become a better pet.

Day 36 / 4
Day 37 / 5

Well, nothing much happened the last two days, so I decided to write down a usual day.

I still wake up few times during the night because I still tend to take my normal sleeping position but the belt is hardly bothering my morning routine - I'm surprised how quick I adapted to this. I get up, go to toilet and take a shower afterwards. Then I, do my hair, eat breakfast and start to get dressed. When Mistress picks me up I just have to pull down my pants and underwear, she removes the belt and put the lock back on my septate hymen - the rule is that I'm either belted or locked.
I kinda like the lock, even it's almost hiding in my pubes, but the pulling sensation at my cunt is a constant reminder that I'm owned - that's something I miss in the belt :o
Also she rubs my cunt and clit a few times so the pad will be damp when we're at school.

School is a usual, but it's getting hard to concentrate sometimes and I have to check my spelling much more often - if you find a spelling mistake: please, please tell me. Master said that just because I'm a dumb pet, I doesn't have to make it hard to read for others and will get one spank for each mistake I make. Same he'll do with my homework.
If I need to pee I have to wait till the breaks between class so Mistress and I can go to the least frequented toilets since we don't want rumours to start if someone sees us going in cabin together.

In the afternoon we go to my home and I undress in the vestibule.
We then have a snack for lunch and start our homework before I begin with the housework. Since Mistress don't have to supervise me any more she can go shopping or go to her home.

When Master comes home I await him at the door, like a good pet or slave should: on my knees, legs apart and head down. I like this position because it's humble and when Master tell me that I did a good job I'm very proud. Mostly we have dinner then and Mistress steps by for few hours.

Normally they give me task to amuse them, like dancing, edging or something other, or they just use me to show me that I'm nothing more than a pet. But since I'm in "no touch" and have to get used to the belt I can't edge or perform any sexual tasks. I still don't know which is worse: edging without relief or no touching at all.

On Monday (36 /4) I had to start the task "SoloM35" gave me a week ago for punishment - doing 20 enemas, but not more than one per day, and keep each 20 minutes. Because I think having an enema every day isn't healthy I decided to take at least 3 days break between each.

Master took 1 litre lukewarm milk, poured it in a bowl and filled the 500ml-syringe with it.
The first one went down with ease, like usual. The second one needs a bit more force in the end, but I can manage it without letting it spill. I took one litre few times already, but mostly let it go after 10 minutes. The longest I had one before was 15 minutes and it was challenging since the pressure builds up slowly but growing stronger the longer it takes. So the last 2 minutes were really hard.
But I didn't want to disappoint my owners, also I didn't want that disgusting enema dripping in my belt, so I put some effort in it. In the end I was clenching my hands into fists but I managed.
Master removed the belt and I plunged on the toilet, I was moaning in relief as it rushed out of me.

Afterwards I took a shower with Master and as he put his soapy cock between my legs I grind myself on it till my cunt was all soapy and washed, then he dried me and put me back in my belt.

On Tuesday (37 / 5) Mistress and me got a test back we had written last Thursday - Mistress got 71%, I only 53% because I absolutely couldn't concentrate. According to the rules that every grade below 75% is a disgrace and result in a paddling for every missing percent to 100. Same for Mistress, but I'm the one getting paddled because I didn't help her studying enough. So, after I got washed and dried, Mistress paddled me 76 times before putting me back in my belt.

And for today (38 / 6):
Master told me to think about how my body and mind may have changed during the denial since now, thereby I'm just sitting here (and resist the urge touch my nipples), with my legs spread and slowly staining the towel under me. So I can give a proper reoprt tomorrow.

Please, keep in mind that my writings are like snapshots of something that was worth reporting. At the moment I'm just in training of wearing the belt and not touching myself. So it could be happen that I don't write for one or two days. What should I write if nothing happend? "I'm horny"? You can bet I am ;)

Reading this makes me want to touch myself, but I cant just yet. :(

Cant wait to read more.:)

Thank you.
At least you have a date - I don't know if it's 4 days, 4 monhts or 4 years :o

Sometimes not knowing can be a good thing ;)

Day 39 / 7

From now on I'll try to write down the conversation we have, too. Every time I read somewhere "Mistress replied..." "Master told me that..." I feel like I'm reading a film-script, not a diary.
So Master will have blue, Mistress red and I have pink. So it's a bit more personal (and I don't have to write "told me this..." then "told me that")

Well, my report about body- and mind changing will take longer then I thought :(
When Master came home he wanted to see it. I was kneeling in the hallway. Sorry Master, I'm not done with it. He sighed. Of course not, what did I expect from a stupid pet. Mistress was there too. Well, if she behave like a pet she could be treated like one. Thank you Mistress.

So, from now I have to wear collar and leash at home, I'm only allowed to crawl and have eat from my bowl on the floor. Also I have to use the piss-bucked again :o

Well, my pubes still drive me crazy, especially when belted. Ok, the pad / panties press all pubes at my cunt and the belt just at the edges, but because of my wetness they are glued to my slit anyhow. Also I can readjust the panties from time to time, the belt doesn't move a bit.

But even I didn't finished my report I thought that Master maybe will have mercy:
Master, may I trim my pubes a bit? Do you think you deserve it? No Mistress, but my cunt itches like crazy because of my messy pubes. Exactly what you deserve.
Pet, do you know what trimmed pubes are for? For slaves. Are you a slave? No Master. What are you? A pet. You have your answer. Mistress was just laughing at me while I nod.

After dinner, I asked Master if he could give me the second enema I was ordered to do by SoloM35.
Again he took one litre of lukewarm milk to fill my rear and again the last few minutes were challenging. But it helps. I feel disgusting and not in the sexy way what Master likes to see, I feel just unclean. But it still makes me wet.
After I had washed again, Master gently circled my ass hole and whispered in my ear.
What do you think if I give this hole another filling. Can you handle it? I was shaking. I... I hope so, Master. He lubed me and his shaft and slowly entered me. I closed my eyes in pleasure, it's been so long since I got impaled by his cock. But as soon as he start moving I was rushing towards the finish line and after few slow but deep strokes (I felt every single on in the cunt) I told him to stop because I was too close.
You cant imagine how disappointed I was by myself - what use do I have?
But Master hugged and comforted me. I was leaning against his chest while his hands slowly glided over my back. It's fine, little one. I always love how fast you reach your peak. That's what every man want in a woman, because it makes him feel like a champion. If you think it's to much to handle you can stop. I shook my head. Thank you, Master, but I don't want to. Even if it's hard I will endure it to become a better sub for you. He lifted my head and kissed me, making me weak in the knees. I know that in the end I won't regret choosing to stay in denial.

After I was washed and belted again I took care of Masters cock with my mouth, giving him some pleasure. Master sit on the sofa and I kneeled between his legs while jerk and suck him.
Suddenly Mistress grabbed my chest and pinched my nipples. Come on you slant-eyed bitch (I like that), give some proper head already. So I gaged myself on him. That's the spirit.
As Master was satisfied I beamed at Mistress and showed her the "V sign" - today I was the one who had pleasured him :)

I have a suggestion for you Puddles: ask your master to be allowed to shave 50% of your bush. Only the part to your right, but not to your left. I think that won't change the itching and discomfort much, but it will teach you that being freshly shaven in a chastity belt is maybe even more uncomfortable ;-)

I only wanted to read about your orgasm for my own pleasure, really. Not that concerned about how you feel about it, silly pet :p

But I understand what you mean. If you ever do get full relief, I hope you'll share it with us here :)

Day 40 / 7
Looks like I counted the day I got belted as day 1.
Well now the numerator should be back on track, now.

As promissed here my report (two days late):

Well I'm in denial for 40 days and belted for one week now, not all the time, but I hadn't touched myself for that long. So Master want me to keep focus if and how my attitude may have changed.

Clothes:
I love being naked in here and I understand that if you go outside you have to cover yourself. But why, WHY do you have to wear underwear? Ok, the panties keep the pad in place and prevent that my juices (another point on my list) will stain my jeans. But a bra? My nipples are always hard and so sensitive by now that I could scream. I start thinking about just taping them and go without bra - I don't think that anyone will notice. Master suggested that if my nipples are so sensitive, I should learn to edge form nipple play. Well, training starts this weekend.

I think I'm much more aware about the clothes touching my body.

Wetness:
I always tend to get wet, very very easy, now I'm constantly wet. Dripping wet. My pubes are a soaked, disgusting mess most of the time.

Mistress touches my cunt while putting the lock at me in the morning?
She can go wash her hands - no water needed.
We come home and I undress in the vestibule?
As soon as my panties come down the scent of my wet cunt is flooding this small room and spots of my juice appear everywhere I stand for longer than 30 seconds.

It's abnormal, but also I like how my body responds of being owned - and my owners too, of course :)

So horny:
I'm not just easy to get wet, I'm also very easy to arouse and always have been a "quick-cummer" - but normally just in bed, when I'm comfortable and not like this.

When I walk to school I can clearly feel the movement of my genitals against the pad and when I arrive there I can feel that it's already damp. If I take the stairs I have to make a break at the fifth floor till my legs stop shaking. So, even walking makes me horny at the moment and I'm so glad that we don't have gym classes anymore.

When I'm naked and not belted but locked (like in the shower) I'm clearly aware of the lock.
Even it's "hiding" in the jungle, it's weight is pulling at my septate hymen, make me feel it every second. And I kinda miss this feeling when I'm belted.

When I was grinding my cunt on Masters cock two days ago to wash it, all I could think about was the fantasy of slamming my cunt on it and make myself his little cock socket. When he fucked my ass on Wednesday I didn't last very long before I was too close to my orgasm and had to stop him.
I knew that I can cum from anal-stimulation, but I never had been this fast, this close.

At the moment I'm just a body controlled by lust, but it makes me open minded for sexual things.

Words and pictures:
Everything can trigger it. I was watching "Full metal jacked" and the recruits call the sergeant "Sir, yes Sir" - I was thinking about Master. I was reading something and the word "dripping" appeared - immediately I couldn't focus on nothing else then my dripping cunt.

So, If Mistress want to tease me during school she just have to whisper naughty words to my ear - it don't even have to be a sentence, just words.

Also, I still have a porn related task to do (watch porn for one hour per day) - It's almost impossible to watch it for one hour straight because my cunt will start throbbing so violent that I could scream.
And you can't imagine what writing this report did to me :o

Concentration:
I can't concentrate properly, I can't write properly and make spelling mistakes - at the PC mostly it's fine, but I think if I would switch of auto-correction you would think I'm mentally challenged. That English is not my native language makes it not better.
If school is interesting I can control myself, but if the topic is boring my mind start to wander, mostly to the nether region of my body. But because I sit there with the damp pad at my itching cunt I cant concentrate for very long. Except for my cunt - I could fantasize about it all day :D.

Body- / Mind confusion:
My libido is a roller coaster at the moment. Sometimes I think, "Hey, you managed 16 years without even know that your body can have an orgasm, you will manage this few days." But five minutes later I'm like "Screw it and screw me till I pass out".
It's like my body and my brain are fighting over my lust - and I have no idea who is winning...

My body want me to edge myself till I'm just at the piont before tipping over, but this one week without touching is fucking me mentally and I think it makes me even hornier.
I like the permanent tension in my lover body and I love that Master and Mistress just have to kiss me or touch my tits to turn me into a dripping mess.

About my day:
The morning and school were as usual. But I fell asleep at the sofa in the afternoon, even I'm not allowed on the furniture.
Master woke me by spraying water on me and afterwards I got spanked, with a rolled up newspaper.
Also, because I didn't greet him at the door like a pet should I got some training - I had to give paws, sit and roll. Then he trained me "down", "sit" and "stay". Because I did so well, Master played fetch with me - I was a bit shocked how much it aroused me to be treated like this http://www.getdare.com/x/img/smile/redface.png

Also "Gram866" found some typos and grammar errors in my blog - I'll not correct them so everybody will see what a stupid pet I am.
I had to write the words down correctly 50 times and got the same amount of spanks by Mistress. Thank you, "Gram866" for helping me to improve my spelling.

Day 41 / 8

Mistress stayed over night (she mostly do at the weekends) so we were laying in bed and they were comforting me. Also we were talking about the day.
So, do you like what I did to you today, pet? Thank you Master, it was awesome. I never thought it would be that nice. So, you want to be treated like a pet for longer? I blushed an nod while biting my lip. Mistress jumped out of bed and threw my blanket on the floor. Then get of the bed you stupid pet. I looked at Master. Why are you looking at me like that? Off. He threw my pillow on the floor too.
While I nestled in my blanked I could hear that Mistress start moaning and I peeked onto the bed. And got face to face with her because she got a good dicking in doggy-style. Soon I start panting and grinding myself on my pillow - I knew it was useless, but I couldn't stop.

After Master creamed her and pulled out I jumped the bed. All I could think of to clean his cock with my mouth. Mistress pulled me back at my ponytail. What do you think you're doing? Get. The fuck. Down.

So I slept on the floor, with my pillow smelling like cunt.

In the morning I woke up early but well rested. I browsed a bit on gD, tumblr and xhamster. I just wanted to browse for few minutes but when I needed to pee I recognized that almost two hours had passed. I don't want to wake up my owners, so I asked for permission to pee on gD - luckily "atownesq" allowed it to me - thank you for that :)

Mistress woke up from the sound of the toilet and we "meet" in the hallway.
Changed your mind? I looked at her questioningly. Walking an two legs, peeing without permission and using the toilet instead of your bucked. Immediately I went down on all fours. I'm sorry Mistress, I simply forgot, but I was allowed to pee.

Master woke up too and Mistress told him what happened and he decided that now would be a good time to get the third enema from the dare I still have to perform :o
I asked Master if he could put a little more liquid in me since I wanted to push myself a bit. He took 1,1 litre which made the last 2 minutes more difficult - thank god, I don't had to release it in my piss bucked.

While I was holding in the enema Mistress took a shower in the second bath room and Master supervised me all the time. Afterwards I got unbelted and we went into the shower together.
I took the ordered "please wash me"-position (feet shoulder wide apart, face to the wall and the hand at the wall) and the start rinsing my lower body. After he made my body wet he start soaping me. I bit my lip as I could feel his hard cock at my ass and closed my eyes to concentrate on his hands caressing my body - it was fantastic. I was trembling and panting the whole time and even he didn't say a word I could hear that his breaths got deeper too. I wouldn't have mind if he had taken me on spot.
After I was clean I kneeled in frond of him, eye begging and my mouth open - I couldn't help myself, I was so eager to give him pleasure. Seeing him smile while coming closer made me so happy. I didn't care that my hair got all wet (usually I wash it in the evening because it take ages to get dry) while sucking him, it was the best feeling in the world.

Mistress was already dressed as we stepped out of the shower and I was belted again.
As expected it took some time to do my hair and it was already noon when I was finished.
Because I didn't act like a pet in the morning (using the toilet and was walking instead of crawling) I got trained again for an hour - I still don't figured out why this make me so fucking horny.
Mistress prepared a small snack for us and after we had eaten (for me from my bowl) she measured the size of my hips with the belt before removing it. I had to dress up and we went on a shopping trip.

First we bought some jeans for me (a bit wider at the hips so the belt will fit inside too) and then we drove a while till we reached an adult store. I was shocked but also very curious. I had always ordered my toys online and never been to one. So even we were just browsing (except for Mistress) it was a very nice experience.

Afterwards we went to a restaurant (I was still tingling inside) and had some nice dinner.

At home I tried he jeans with the belt below (they fit perfect) and then I had to show if I was able to obey the commandos given by Master. Because I was on all fours my juice was seeping through the sides of the front shield with showed everyone how aroused I was. But I'm proud that I still remembered all commandos I was given :)

Awesome story and I enjoy it very much, but you might need to tell master you typed a word WRONG from your recent post, "release it in my piss bucked". Pretty sure the d should have been a T

Maybe I made this typo because I want the "D" so much at the moment :p
I had to write down the word 50 times and received 50 OTK spanks - Thank you :)

Day 42 / 9

After I woke up I made lunch for everyone (one the few times I'm now allowed to stand upright) and asked Master when my nipple training would start. But because the weather was so nice today (the last weeks it was like shit) Master and Mistress decided to walk me instead.

After I got dressed, Master collared me and put the leash trough the sleeve of my jacked while Mistress gave me a scarf, so nobody would notice what's going on, but for me. I was so nervous but when we reached the forest I had the feeling that the pad was already soaked. Also I had to adjust my panties few times during the walk, Master noticed of course.
It beats me why I'm annoyed by my bush so much at the moment. Maybe because the panties got tighter with the thick pad, pressing it harder at my cunt, or I'm just more sensitive by now.
I don't know, I don't care, I just kinda looked forward to be belted again because it's not pressing directly at my throbbing clit.

Thank you, but Mistress had a more perfidious plan: She got some numbing cream at the adult store :eek:
Normally this cream ist used by men who struggle with premature ejaculation, but she uses it before getting her brazilian waxing. I got nervous but very curious at the same time, and after I made sure that it's safe to use I was more than eager to try it.

I undressed right down to the collar (without leash), then I had to apply a good amount of cream at my genitals. First I covered my clit with it, but had to make a break afterwards - I just got too close to the edge and was humping the air with my legs wide spread. After my cunt stopped twitching I covered my labia with the cream and Mistress wrapped it in Saran wrap. I was panting the whole time.

You can't imagine how I felt, finally allowed to touch myself, but knowing that my cunt will turn into a senseless piece of meat soon.

After 10 minutes I touched my clit to test. I could still feel the sweet touch but not as much any more. And after 30 minutes my genitals just doesn't exist any longer, it was strange, but interesting at the same time. Mistress rubbed my cunt, gave it few squeezes and flicked my clit - nothing.

Satisfied? Yes, Mistress, thank you. Well, now your Gookzilla is tamed, you can focus on your nipples. You won't get belted for now, but stay in your panties and your legs will be spread as far as possible. Master handed me my nipple chain. When you think it's enough you'll put on this. I nod in agreement.

I did as told, lay down on the bed (I was allowed) facing the big mirror and took deep breaths to relax.
Then Master dripped some warm coconut oil (it's my favourite) between my breast and on my belly.
I start massaging my belly and chest, but left out my tiny tits till they craved to be touched.
I circled them with feather like touch before rubbing them, still leaving out my hard brown nipples but circling them. I was trembling in anticipation and when I finally touched them I gasped for air. With my numbed cunt my nipples felt much more sensitive.
I slowly circled the top of my nipples, before sliding my hands over my tits and my belly to the hemline of my panties, and back. Then I started all over again. But instead of rubbing over my tits I gave them light squeezes now before going to my nipples, rolling them between thumb and index finger this time. Again I let my hands slide again down to my panties and back. Now I was squeezing by breast a bit harder and the time I touched my stiff buttons again, a dark spot had formed in my panties and they were clinging to my slit. I didn't feel a thing there but I could clearly see it in the mirror. I was moaning in pleasure and pinched my nipples hard. It was so intense and I was shaking so much now that I reached for my clamps. For now it was enough for me.

Of course Master and Mistress played with my breast before, especially Master really likes them, but I still fell a bit embarrassed for my "mosquito bites". So I never thought that I could gain so much joy from my tiny tits by myself and was really surprised by the fuzzy feeling that was rushing through my whole body.

When I get up Master had to hold me, my knees were so weak that I couldn't stand properly and my panties were soaked with my juices. Mistress pulled them down and belted me again.
Then I prepared dinner for us, still in collar and nipple chain and afterwards I did the dishes.

My genitals came back about 2 hours later, so slowly in the beginning that I didn't notice first but then I could feel my cunt throbbing with need so much that I was jumping in lust.
The rest of the evening I clenching my legs (which had no use of course) and secretly pulling on my nipple chain few times, till Mistress noticed and took them away.

When I had my evening cleaning (first the belt then myself) my nipples were so sensitive that Master washed me extra carefully there. But still I was already close to the edge before Master slit his hand between my legs. So I just got a quick wash there before happily putting my belt on.

I have to admit that I kinda enjoyed numbing my genitals (I'll definitely do it again). And even I don't went to the edge by just nipple play (I didn't expected it though - but with longer training, maybe...) I really loved it. Master promised me that next time Mistress and him will take care of my breast too. I'm really looking forward to it and think / hope that I'm now more confident about my breast.

Thank you all for your nice words, they really help me to stay motivated :)

I just have to poke my curious nose about something here. It seems to me that you are almost constantly wet between your legs. I know you use pads and all, but I'm curious about how many pair of panties you use during a typical day. More than one pair?
It would also be exciting if you describe them (style and color) once in a while in your diary, when you're already mentioning them. Especially if you're wearing a sexy pair ;)

As told, I'm easy to get wet and have always been. Even before I was put in denial I had white spots in my panties sometimes, but I mostly didn't notice when and how it happened. Well, now I'm wet almost 24/7 and feel it clearly.

I mostly only use one pair, even when I got extreme wet it was never so much that I had to change my panties. Pads on the other hand I mostly have to use 2 per day. I use thin pads now, because the bigger ones put more pressure at my cunt ;).

For sexy underwear I'm sorry to dissapoint you, I haven't seen much sexy underwear in my (childlike) size and only own one pair of lingerie for special occasions :( So, I mostly wear cotton classic briefs, hipsters or boyshorts. Mostly it's just plain or have cute patterns. But I'll mention them for you from now.

Well, today is Day 45 / 12 and the last days were just regular.
Yesterday I got my fourth enema for the dare (20 enemas in total, but not more than one a day) I still have to perform, but at the moment my daily task is to get more used to the belt which feels a bit like being put in corner time all day :(
But I understand that this is part of become a true submissive that truely can serve Master and Mistress. But I don't feel so horny anymore - I don't know if my body adapts to the denial or I'm just get used to it. Of course sometimes I just get hot and my whole body screams to be touched, but at the moment I'm not so needy like I was the last two weeks :o

Hi folks

Well, today is Day 53/20 and not much happend the last days and I had a little down :(
I talked a lot with Master and Mistress about this and had the chance to remove the belt, but I declined :) - I don't know if it was stupid or something to be proud of.
I just needed a few days to let my mind settle, took a breathe and keep going.

Because Master hadn't had mucht time last week we went skiing last weekend and had a very nice time which was very bonding :)

This week I'm taking care of my niece in the afternoon, but it gives me the chance practising to be hidden belted :o

I love reading your denial diary, even though it frustrates me, because I can't cum either.

When I see the date in your signature, I think that you will come sooner than me ;)

Don't be so sure. It's not a fixed date, days keep getting added all the time. Might be a very long time...

Here my report for Friday - Day 54 / 21

When I got dressed in the morning I realized that I had no clean panties, since I forgot to wash them :o. All I had was the thong that Mistress bought me in January, so I placed it in the vestibule to put it on after Mistress would have removed the belt.

But Mistress refused that I'll wear this to school. This lingerie is just for special occasions. Wear something else. Sorry Mistress, I don't have any. I forgot to do the laundry. Then you should wear your your belt or go commando. I shook my head. Please, don't make me do this. Mistress slid her hand between my legs and grinned. Then we'll need to find something more fitting for this wet pet. She looked at my closet, grinned and grabbed my white swimsuit (that one that get see-through when wet). When I think about how wet you are, this should be fitting. Put it on.

It was so tight that the pad doesn't really fit in, so I put it in my warm leggings. I must confess, it felt good how smooth the swimsuit was wrapping around my body and clung to my cunt. I taped my nipples, so they wont poke trough my clothes and we went to school. Everything went well.

Till I had to go to the toilet.
Mistress smiled as I pulled down my pants because my pubes were clearly visible trough the damp piece of clothes that sticking at my cunt. But when I wanted to pull it aside so I could pee, Mistress stopped me. Oh no, you're not just pulling it aside. You wear it instead of panties, so you will pull it down like panties. But if I want to pull it down I have to undress. Tja. If you don't want to remove it, pee through it or don't pee at all. First I hesitated, but then I nod, took a deep breath and removed my sweater and shirt. I was well aware of my revealing suit as I handed my clothes to Mistress. I was a bit scared as I slowly peeled out of my swimsuit, which pulled strings of juices to my cunt.

Till I was done, the wet spot had cooled and felt kinda nice at my warm crotch as I dressed myself.
And when I had to pee again during the second break I didn't hesitate any more :)

When we came home my niece was already waiting, so I had no chance to undress, get belted and dress again. Mistress was positive that I had enough self control not to do something stupid, but she stayed with me to make sure ;)

Shortly after my niece got picked up I went to the vestibule and undressed myself. The whole crotch area of my swimsuit was soaked. Just after I put on my belt Master came home.
Because it was the third week I was belted he had a present to celebrate - an anal chain with four golf-ball size beads - I was allowed to enter three of them in my ass.

Because I still have to do my enema-punishment Master removed the belt again and I got filled with 1,5 litres lukewarm milk - I never had that much before and it, so it got really hard in the end and I leaked a bit :o

After I released the mess and got washed Mistress lubed my ass and the beads.
The I had to push them in my ass, but to make it more challenging Master decided to make me earn every single one.

I had to drink a glass of water, edge, put one bead in and wait a minute, drink another glass of water, edge again and pull it out. Then I had to drink two glasses of water, edge and put one bead in, edge two times and put the second one in, wait two minutes, drink two glasses of water, edge two times and pull one bead out, edge again and pull the second one. Well, for the third bead you can guess.

When I put the third bead in I needed to pee so bad. Master, may I got to the toilet? If you are done with this task you may get your piss bucked. If you can't hold it during this task you will get a paddling.

I tried my best, but when pulling the second bead I just couldn't hold it any more, I was on all fours, three beads hanging from my ass and pissing myself. So I had to get the last one out kneeling in a lake of my piss, where I got my paddling too.

After I cleaned the mess and Master cleaned me I got belted again.
Because I spend most of the day without it I now have to wear it the whole weekend, without the sweet release in between. Let's see if I can handle it.

Thank you for the update. I really like the anal beads and pee part.

this makes for great reading indeed! Just to make sure: are you still allowed to decide when you do the laundry? I would say that you'd have to get mistresses permission to do so and that you'd have to have your panties (clean or not) always spread out on the table in your room. In that way, also your mistress may require you to re-wear your underwear when you deserve it ;-)

Thank you :)
Sorry to disappoint you, but Master insist that I keep the flat clean and tidy, so I don't have a "panty-table" and have to do the laundry if necessary. Mistress liked the idea of forcing me to wear my swimsuit till it not just smells but stinks like wet cunt. I'm just not sure about the hygenic reasons.

As told before I spend the whole weekend in the chastity belt.
On Saturday we went grocery shopping, which made me well aware of the belt since it was the first time I wear it outside - I had the feeling everybody was staring at me and I felt very uncomfortable.
We were even running into two girls from my class and after that I just needed to get out of the store. It was just too much for me :(

Master and I went to his car and get in the back seat (because the rear windows were tinted) and he comforted me. He apologized that he had brought me in this crowded place first and not to a more quiet one for the first time. But he was watching me and other people around, nobody seemed to notice what was going on, even the girls from my class.
You can't imagine how embarrassed I felt but knowing that he was there for me imediately means a lot for me. But I keept staying in the car.

On Sunday we [Master, Mistress and me] had a walk in the forest and because the weather was not that nice nobody else was there. That made it pretty easy for me.
Nevertheless I was happy that I could remove the belt in the evening, even it was just or a short time before getting belted again for the night. It felt very nice feeling the water running through my bush.

Maybe you have noticed that I don't complain about my pubes any more. Not because I got used to it or even trimmed, but Master told me that this won't bring me anywhere and the next time I'll whining about the itch he'll cover my cunt in Tiger Balm before locking me. Maybe I would like that more.
So, I'll endure it.

The smell of my two days unwashed cunt was not half as bad as I feared, thankfully it was more a scent of wet cunt than old pee. Wiping my ass is still a bit difficult, but according to Master, I managed pretty well :-).

My horniness was easy to handle the last days. But yesterday it just ambushed me while making dinner. I was chopping carrots when my cunt jumped into overdrive without any warning. I gasped in surprise and had to hold myself to the worktop. When my legs stopped shaking my juices already oozed from the holes in the belt while my clit throbbed violently. Now I truly understand the purpose of this belt, every single nerve in my cunt craved to be touched and without this unyielding piece of metal I would have jumped every phallic object in sight. It amused Master to see me like a bitch in heat again and he really seemed to enjoy my agony.

Today morning (day 59 / 26 ) Mistress gazed at my juicy cunt and decided that I need one of the thick pads. But, because it would ad too much pressure to my sensitive parts she didn't put it in my panties but in my tights. So I stained the panties with the cute flower pattern with my juices. Mistress asked me if I was watering the flowers - how demeaning :o

When we came home my panties were soaked, so Mistress decided that it won't any difference now and just closed the belt while I was still in them. I had to asked Mistress every time I needed to pee and caring like Mistress is, she made sure that I stayed well hydrated.

Well, also today was Steak & BJ day.
So after cleaning the flat I made sure that Master will notice how much I love him. I fried a steak (just with salt and pepper), green beans and some potatoes with rosemary. Mistress and me just made a schnitzel, but the trimmings were the same.

When we had eaten I made sure that he could enjoy the rest of the day.
But while I sucked him, Mistress poked my butt hole through the panties which made me shiver. Master told her to be careful because the belt would fit her too if she pushes me to far - if I hadn't my mouth filled with cock I would have grinned :D.
After Master was done I got unbelted and was finally able to remove my drenched panties. The belt feels a bit better now, because it's not sticking directly at my cunt.

So, almost 2 month without an orgasm make me burst into a trembling, horny mess without warning, but I had some really nice days and Master thinks that I made a big step forward by leaving the save flat while wearing the belt. But the experience in the supermarket showed me that I have a long way to go till I become a real denial slut. The future will show if I'm worthy.

Well, looks like you are making great progress with going outside, even if a confrontation with school people was a bit of a hard start. I loved the idea of your mistress to wear the pad between your panties and leggings. How nicely humiliating that must have been ;-).

looking forward to hearing how you are doing now ;-)

I believe you have a mistake in your last post - you wrote "...leaving the save flat..." should be safe flat

Keep it up, doing good

Thank you for encouraging me.

Well, it's been ten days since I posted my last entry (sorry for kept you waiting) - time really flies when you are busy with studying. But also it didn't happened much last week, beside that I'm really horny most of the time and was kept in my belt for the whole weekend again.

Mistress had the same thoughts as ltakltak. I have to wear the pads now outside of my panties and it is embarrassing to feel how quick the cotton gets soaked or see the wet spot growing every time I use the toilet. It's the best evidence of what I am: A filthy pet with a dripping wet cunt - a bitch in heat.

On Thursday (day 67 / 34) Master washed me and granted me one edge during the shower. I moaned and told that I could enjoy this all day. He whispered in my ear that I should be careful what I wish for. I didn't know what he mean, till Friday when I came home.
I undressed and expected to be belted, but when I wanted to pull down my soaked panties Mistress told me to stop. Because of what I said yesterday I would be kept at the edge today.
The instructions Master gave her were clear:
She could do whatever she liked (except for making me cum, shave or damaging his property) to make me beg to be belted when Master comes home.

First I got 25 spankings on my covered cunt for staining the panties - for every pair of underwear I stain I'll get 50 more slaps from now. Then she pulled a second pair of panties (of course Mistress was choosing the thinnest panties I own) over the first one and placed a bullet vibe in them, buzzing at the lowest setting. After that she pulled my labia till the vibe with the panties nestled nicely between them and I had to do my daily tasks. Of course she didn't place it directly at my clit, but still the vibrations were clearly noticeably. And I had more than six hours in front of me before Master came home :eek:. Then Mistress clamped my nipples, but put the chain behind my neck, and collared me. Now I was properly prepared for the afternoon.

Well, I started with preparing lunch (still one of the few times I'm allowed to stand upright). Every step I took or every time I closed my legs I pressed my labia tight to the vibe, so I ended by standing with my legs wide apart. But it was nothing compared to when I had to crawl on all fours. My labia kept rubbing between my thighs and the vibe, which made really, really horny. Plus because the chain was behind my neck it was constantly pulling my nipples.
Also munching from my bowl made me "presenting" my genitals and didn't take long till a dark spot formed the second pair.

Mistress stopped the vibe, removed it and gave me the well deserved 50 spanks on my cunt. Then she gave me the third pair and placed the vibe in it, but now it was buzzing at the second lowest speed, which made eating a bit harder.
After lunch I asked for permission for using the toilet, of course in the proper position - seiza-style, knees apart, hands on my knees, head down and polite voice. Mistress supervised me as usual while I did my humiliating piss in the bucked, but I was thankful to escape the merciless vibe for few minutes. As I pulled down my panties I was, well, not shocked, but very surprised how wet I was :o.

After that was done it was time for doing our homework, which is the only time I'm allowed to use a chair. But the vibe had slipped down a bit and I was almost sitting on it which made me jump because I was rushing towards the edge. So I was quite thankful as the wet spot appeared on my panties, even that means that my cunt got another 50 spanks. But the vibe was put in the right place afterwards, even it was now put on a higher speed.

During the homework I start shivering and my teeth were rattling because I got so horny. I was panting while talking and got interrupted by a deep moan. As my hips start to buck Mistress switched off the vibe. I put my head on the table. Close? I nod, biting my lower lip. Yes Mistress. You know that you have to tell me, right? Yes Mistress. If you cum Master won't have any mercy, on both of us. She pulled my chain. I don't care if you got disciplined, but I don't want to be punished because his stupid pet can't behave. She pulled my chain again. Look at me. Next time you get close, raise your hand. Yes Mistress. Also I needed another pair of panties. If you keep using up panties at this speed you won't have any left for the weekend. Oh right, you won't need them. After I got my fifth pair and next 50 slaps she switched the vibe back on, again a notch higher. Can you handle this? I gasped, but nod.
Mistress had to switch the vibe off for three more times till we were done with the homework.

After that we had bit more than three hours left till Master comes home - Mistress made sure that these were spend properly. While I emptied my bladder Mistress put two towels on the sofa, so I could face the TV and put in my old USB-device. Before I laid down Mistress removed the clamps from my nipples which got really sensitive and I was allowed to remove the panties. I laid on my back so I could see my messy "jungle" and the TV through my legs. The first video was about a girl that masturbates, edges and denies her orgasm for almost one and a half hour. Well, I have to say: I edged way more often than the girl in the video :D, but she came in the end, me not :(.
The next videos were mostly between 5 and 15 minutes and had all kings of content. Spankings, forced orgasms (mostly Asian girls, yay) and lezdom - well everything I like. Mistress used the vibe (so I could focus on my nipples only) and took really good care of my cunt. She brought me so close few times that I was afraid of tipping over the edge. I moaned so loud that Mistress had to gag me and my cunt twitched like crazy. I think my pelvic muscles will be sore tomorrow.

When Master came home I wasn't begging to be belted, but just because Mistress almost teased me stupid. Also, my back hurt a bit because I kept laying a bit bend. When Master stood in the door it took me a while to realize and remember to greet Master in properly.
He ordered me to the big mirror in the sleeping room so he could inspect my body.
As I took the position I had the chance to look at myself. I looked disgusting: heavy blushing, my cheeks and neck covered in my drool, the hair at my labia (which were dark and swollen) was a nasty wet mess while the hair on my mons were glued by my dried juices, but I could feel that my ass was dripping with my fluids at the same time.
Wow, you really are a filthy pet. I muffled trough my gag. Thank you Master. Have you thanked your Mistress already? No, Master. Then you better do. I nod, crawled back to the living room and kneeled in front of Mistress. I hoped it wouldn't take too long.
She stood up, removed my gag and pulled down her pants. I smirked as I noticed the wet spot in her panties. What are you grinning at you stupid bitch? Stay. Then I had to put on my panties (not the clean ones) and put the vibe in it again. If you need to stop, raise your hand. I nod. Let's see if you can bring me to orgasm before you reach the end. As the vibe started I began eating her out.
Of course I didn't managed it - I was just to worked up and had to stop her two times. But Master took the paddle and made sure that the breaks didn't get too boring. Also I got 50 spanks for making the spelling mistake - thank you "John M".
As my ass slowly turned red I could feel that I was leaking through the panties.
Finally Mistress reached her climax and I was at my final edge too, I couldn't handle one more. I kneeled there, my head on the floor and raised my hand. What do you think, are you ready to be put back in your belt? I just nod. My whole body was trembling as Master pulled the buzzing vibe out of my slick panties. Good girl.

I almost jumped out of my panties directly into the belt. I didn't even washed myself, because having the warm pulsing water, Masters soapy hands and then the rubbing towel at my sensitive parts seemed to be worse than having my dirty cunt belted.
Because I cooperated so nicely I got a reward. This evening I was the one who gave Master pleasure. He told me that my blowjobs really had improved since I'm kept in denial.

Well, that was my day (and the last ten days). Thank you.

Looks like you have got yourself an additional nickname: stains ;-)

This was one of the most interesting reports you did, and I absolutely loved reading it.

Thank you, Master told me that I had to put some efford in it because I didn't post for ten days. And for the new nickname: I'm happy with "puddles" ;)

As we [Master, Mistress and me] were in bed we talked about the day - what I liked (that I finally could touch myself again), what I didn't like (that the spankings were done to my covered cunt) and how well Mistress were teasing me. Also I was allowed to sleep in bed last night :)

Well, today (68 / 35) I could hardly walk - Master told me that I waddle like a duck that shit her pants :o

Nevertheless we went for a walk in the woods. Like the last times I had to wear my collar and the leash throught the sleeve of my jacked. As I got dressed in the vestibule Master sniffed and bend to my crotch. Ugh! Pet, you stink. You stink like a filthy cunt. Well, it fits her, because that's what she is. Master and Mistress nodded to each other and looked at me. What are you waiting for? Put some pants on, or do you want to get walked in nothing but your belt? I blushed and hurried to got dressed.

As we got to the woods the parking space was almost full. Looks like many people had the same idea and I had the feeling that some were taking an closer look at me - I guess / hope that it was just because of my walking.

In the evening I asked Master if I had permission to take a bath. It got denied :(. You are a cunt and now you smell like a cunt.

Well, tomorrow I have to tease my nipples again and if I do well I'm allowed to take a bath. I will make sure that I earn it.