[degrademeplease]

I need some some advice.

14 months ago, I found an amazing Dom on Get Dare who for the most part makes me feel safe, valued and respected. He is the best Dom that I have ever had and I enjoy the fun we have together. He has made me submit deeper than anyone else ever has before and I always want to improve for him.

For the past six months, except for some casual play and D/s conversations sometimes, we've had to take a break from the dynamic. I won't go into details, but it isn't his fault because he has had personal struggles and I have tried my best to support him.

We both very much want this, it just isn't possible right now. The problem is that I really struggle with the loss of the dynamic sometimes. It makes me feel a bit lost as a submissive. It gets harder the longer this goes on for.

I get a lot of pleasure from pleasing my Dom and can find the lack of rules, praise and conversation very difficult to the point where it makes me feel down. That then makes me feel guilty because my problems are trivial compared to his.

I have been honest about how it makes me feel sometimes but it's hard to discuss because I don't want him to feel like he is to blame. He also isn't really in a position to help me feel better a lot of the time because of his own struggles.

I want nothing more than to be his good girl properly again, but it isn't possible right now and I don't know when it will be again.

How can I deal with these emotions I'm feeling? How can I stop feeling so lost, needy and vulnerable?