[L.Coubert]

I arrived at my parents house on the 19th. I may have cum that morning, I may have not, I don't remember. After a few days here of doing nothing sensual I started to masturbate in the shower one morning. I began to remember my days of edging, something I have not done properly for a long time, and thought about how fun it would be to try that for a while here. So I just brought myself to the edge a few times and then left it. However I found it hard to stop touching myself, and kept excusing myself to go to the bathroom, never letting myself cum, and it was then I decided to set myself the challenge of not cuming until I return to London.

I got hotter and hotter thinking about how worked up I'd be after 11 days without an orgasm, and all my old fantasies about tying myself up with a vibrator forcing me to cum over and over came flooding back. I got so hot I ordered some new toys, including a magic wand which I felt might be the key to my long sort for prostate orgasm. Especially combined with all this abstinence.

On top of this I've given up porn for a while. It's made me much more sensual. But last night I gave in and watched some in bed, I was basically on edge for the whole time I was watching it. And then, when I decided to stop, I couldn't help bringing myself to the edge again and again, until I was finally too exhausted to continue. I woke up still hard and edged again and again, and more in the shower. I feel so close to orgasm all the time and I don't want to stop touching myself.

This is why I decided to write to you guys for a little support, and if you were interested to keep a diary of my last few days of struggle. Something to keep me on the straight and narrow.

Right now Im fighting not to feel myself through my jeans here in the living room...