[footlover.london]

Originally Posted by Leland

Life is a cruel bitch so don't worry... work on your edges with your own pace and if you are too slow this will only make your ordeal harder and amusing in a different way. So for now I'm ok with no mandatory tasks and we wil stick with Deathwing's original optional idea of edging to a mystery pic every now and then to reduce edges. So let me ask: what is it that you prefer not doing? I guess It's recording yourself, right? If so, no problem, I'll take it as a reasonable limit... I'm also still baffled that you agreed to such insanity born out of a joke... I guess deep down you really needed something so intense. So no need to be cruel anymore, it's now just the time to slowly struggle to pay the price.

PS I think you missed my double posting above when I asked you about your censored porn and how you use it so I can think of a way to reduce edges with it as promised.

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Thank you for that glimmer of mercy Leland. I am also baffled how I have agreed to this.

With respect to things that I don’t like doing (that are not limits) you have already hit on some of them. Piss is definitely one….and there is also a limit to how much I can do subtlety when alone. But that is one.

Porn control is another area. I’m fundamentally a Beta Slut and so even when desperate and denied I can’t resist touching and edging my maggot. I’m also a ‘straight’ male (I think) but have been ‘forced’ in the past to consume gay porn. Full gay porn is still very challenging for me (no judgement…just saying)…but cock worship and sissy porn bridges the gap of humiliating and not what I’d choose to be doing but still something that has enough of a hook.

Recording myself is also an ordeal (and not always possible) but isn’t a limit. Indeed, I have been made to do it a lot in recent years, with some exposure/sharing of videos and pictures too. I have, for reference, accumulated quite a collection of pictures and videos myself in various predicaments - edging, humiliating cumshots, dressed as a sissy (I do this occasionally but rare given my secrecy) and similar. One of my blog posts on here also describes one of the most humiliating orgasms I once had (to a picture of my own dick, with the cumshot also recorded and which I still have now). I had wondered if that was one of the inspirations for one of the gamble options.

I’m not generally into pain, unfortunately, this is largely a limit. Though, provided not to severe, this could be considered as a genuine punishment (I mean punishment rather than as part regular task). Also not into anal (basically a limit I think).

I am sorry too. I had missed your previous question on censored porn. I’ve increasingly started to use this as a way to frustrate and humiliate myself. This started out with me censoring and captioning pictures from my own porn collection which I also published on BDSMLR (user SubbyFootSlave if you’d like to see). I’ve done much less of this recently, which largely reflects the fact that I have instead been systematically censoring my video porn collection. This is very time consuming but has grown quite a lot in the past year or so (now about 4.5 hours in total).

I then use this collection to edge (not always but sometimes to humiliate myself) and recently cum (one of my rules this year). Clearly my preference would be for uncensored porn but this is part of me accepting I am a pussyfree beta. Most of my videos censor pussy/breasts/cleavage only though recently I’ve also started to censor out feet. So I guess that explains how I use it, in general. There is also another angle, perhaps, whereby creating these videos also slows down my edging (it’s very difficult to create these videos while edging). As a guide, I would say that each minute of censored porn I make probably uses up about an hour of time (during which I cannot edge). So while I enjoy this, sort of, it’s also a bit of a penance / source of frustration as I’m not playing with my maggot in this time….like my inner slut wants to.

Just to be clear, there is obviously no need for you to come up with tasks in this area. I more just wanted to answer your question and give you more information about me and what I get up to.

Thank you for showing interest and again for your slight mercy on me. Scared though I am, I am pleased that you are considerately directing me.