I. AM. NOT. DENIED! OR ON NO TOUCH!
The three days of no touch were interesting... I had my days packed full mostly to stop me from thinking about it, and I think the dread of doing it was worse than actually doing it. That doesn't mean I liked it though. No touch is EVIL!
I like it a little, even if it is horrible. There were a couple of evil people *glares* teasing me with it as well, and for some reason I though playing during it might be a good idea too.
Suprisingly enough, the latter is true. Topping during no-touch is a while lot less evil than I thought, at least while I'm actively doing it. I rarely touch anyway during it. The period before and after are evil though. Thinking about what to do or what was done is making me squirm much harder than telling someone what to do. Telling someone just has me very content and grinning.
After my lovely denial was up, there was a little bit of waiting for a safety net to arrive, and onwards to my orgasm! An orgasm after 39 days of denial! I was very amped for it, and half worried that it wouldn't feel as good as I hyped it up to be. I'm afraid the latter was true this time. I had a fun task that got me to re-experience everything I had done so far. Deepthroating my dildo again. Edging. Spanking. Plugging. Each of the tasks separately felt amazing, and got me down a little bit further. The breaks in between them however were long enough to make me come back again instead of going as deep as I craved at the moment. I wanted to feel controlled though, and followed through with them.
Don't get me wrong, the orgasm(s) most definitely felt good. I just could get up again after 10 minutes
Mostly, I was feeling a lot of relief. Relief from managing to be denied for so long and being denied. Of getting through all my tasks. Of getting through blasted NO-TOUCH (Which idiot put that in there?!?). Content, and utterly exhausted. My mind felt like it was overstressed the remainder of the day, and I could barely drag myself forward through everything. I couldn't quite find the energy to post this either, so it's only coming today.
This morning though, I am happy again. Happy and very much enjoying my mild orgasms. Not earth-shattering, I need a lot more build-up for that, but just good comfortable orgasms
I had indeed forgotten how those felt. They are a relief and a comfort now though, knowing I can
just have one whenever I want to.
It's going to be a bit light on my submissive side for now though. I need a break after having climbed this mountain of tasks. To everyone who contributed to the mountain and helped me get through, thank you a lot!
I really enjoyed doing this, getting the mountain, working it off, and surprisingly enough, being denied as well. I got used to it after some point, making it less of a hammer and a more continual state of submission. Not going there too early again, and definitely not for this long, but it was fun!