[lilith_]

Usually I am open about my kinky life, even to vanilla people (the ones I choose to open up to). If I am in a relationship with a Dom I don't want to pretend that I am his girlfriend. I am not his girlfriend, I am his sub AND his lover. But not everyone accepts it. I've had friends be concerned because they couldn't understand that this is what I want. They thought I had a problem if I was willing to accept "abuse" and "manipulation". I guess that's the negative impact on my vanilla life. I don't want to hide who I am or pretend that we are something else of what we are. If I want to call him Sir in front of people or ask permission to eat/drink/do something, I want to be able to do it without getting dirty looks or having people think that I am a freak. I guess I won't ever be able to have that unless I only hang out with kinky people.