20/F I am your open book and you can read me.
 

Hello stranger!

I’m new here and this is my first post! I'm excited to be a part of the community and I'm sure I'll be posting more soon enough. My lovely Dom has instructed me to do an AMA for my first post so here I am.

Rules
As per his instructions, I am required to respond to every single question I receive, with some caveats. Firstly, I will not be responding to any question whose answer involves personally identifying information. Secondly, I will not respond to unreasonable questions or behavior (for example, if someone asks hundreds questions all at once). And finally, at my discretion I may choose to not respond to any vanilla questions that are not kink/BDSM related or not sexual or not embarrassing etc, however I assume I'm going to answer most if not all of those if I get any :3. One last thing, I'm not going to respond to PMs and have them turned off, please direct your questions to this post only. I am the property of my Dom and my Dom alone.

About Me
I go by Yelena, I'm almost 21, I have been interested in kink for a long while and just recently had my 2 year anniversary with my Dom, we are long distance. I’m Deaf from birth. My favorite kinks are as follows: Bondage, Orgasm Control and Denial/Chastity (I have a belt which he requires I wear on occasion), Petplay, Breathplay, Power Exchange, Service, Praise, Light Degradation, and Light Pain Play. My username is because my Dom has recently been training me to be a piss slut and I was required to pick an embarrassing name for the account. My hobbies are reading, sketching and VR/videogames. Kink is a very large part of my personality and identity. As a sub I am not a brat and enjoy following instructions and obeying orders more than anything else.

And without further ado, I hereby become your personal open book, please ask me anything!

How did you meet your dom?

Whats the longest you have been in denial?

How are you enjoying you transformation into being a piss slut?

On Reddit! He made a very sweet post on r/BDSMpersonals and I reached out. I had been looking for a while and read many many posts before his. Most of them on that subreddit are just kink shopping lists, but his was real and made me really feel like there was a person behind it. Happily there was and the rest is history.

Well over several months x.x my Dom keeps me denied pretty much 24/7. We don't really keep specific track of it like most people into denial, but yeah definitely very long stretches. I am constantly needy. The belt of course makes things both easier and more difficult at the same time. More difficult because I want to play with myself more when it's on but easier because I can't do it very effectively if at all. But I can't wear it all the time so.

Well I have been nervous about it, he has been working on it for a couple months and I'm getting better :3. He has made me lick my toilet, and I couldn't at first but now I can and do when he asks. It makes me feel like I'm nothing and I like that feeling. Just to obey gives me all the pleasure I need.

First off, great attitude! You sound like a good, well-behaved sub.

Have you integrated kink into your gaming much? Can you share some stories about it?

It's been a couple years, what are some of the things that make you feel closest given the distance?

Is there anything else you've been trained to do that you wouldn't have done before, and if so, can you talk about it? Is there anything you're looking forward to being trained to do?

Thank you! I try my best. It helps that I really enjoy it :3

Oh yes we certainly have! XD we used to play overwatch together before the update, and I was his heal slut. If I let him die I would be punished in various ways. I miss that and wish we still played, but I recognize that blizzard sucks. We also play D&D, just him and I and a DM. He will tie certain things to die rolls, the more 1s I roll the more I spank myself after the session, more 20s more rewards, etc. One session he made a table with lots of stuff, I had to put pegs on myself and take them off mid session, put in plugs and things. Hopefully our DM never finds this owo

We spend a lot of our time doing things outside of kink. We have a weekly book club where I read a chapter of a book he picks and we talk about it. Currently we are going through book of the New Sun, one of his favorite series, and he has read it a bunch of times and is intimately familiar with all it's nuance. So many times we have been in very long in depth discussions where it seems like we disagree about the point we're talking about, but it turns out we actually mostly agree and just were saying it in different ways xD. We have spent hours in conversations like this and they are all so much fun. And then he ties me up or spanks me or makes me piss on my hand afterwards hehe. We also play games together, before it was overwatch, but now it's D&D, and recently he got me the Mass Effect games and I'm streaming them for him over discord while I play. It's a series I have been interested in but never played. It remains to be seen if we will work anything kinky into that game xD.

Oh, so many things! With my partner before him, I was trained by them in very specific ways. A lot of my Dom's time so far has been spent breaking those things I've been familiar with. For example, I used to (I think dislike isn't quite the word but I can't really think of a better alternative) dislike edging. With my ex I wasn't allowed to touch myself at all, basically ever. And so he has put in a lot of work to get me used to that and edging especially. Also we have been looking into some hypnosis like stuff, I see a certain word and I react immediately because of repeated constant training. It isn't really for everyone and was kind of scary to start with but for me it really does work. For example, there is a word that when he says it, I am to piss myself. In my head as it happens, I know I could stop myself, but I wouldn't ever do that. The moment I see it I just let it all go. Brain off. That isn't a position I expected to be in. There's even something that he never expected to be doing but we have really been doing a lot lately! I am very turned on by hands, I'm not a very visual person as far as sexual arousal is concerned, I'm more interested in ideas and scenarios and the porn that I look at isn't actually about the physical media, it's about placing myself into it. Anyways, one thing that does arouse me from just the image without any context is hands xD idk why or how but yeah, I guess it's similar to people who are really into feet, but for me it's hands. Anyways, my Dom (and me by proxy) have a Clothed Dom naked sub kink. When I am at home I am naked. Always. I'm naked right now writing this x.x. and it was always the case that I would be the exposed one for him while he remains clothed and comfortable over me. However recently he has started using pictures to control my behavior, teasing me with pictures of his hands... Holding belts... Djfjjdfkjfmf long story short, something we but especially him never expected to happen.
As for something I look forward to... I'm not sure, I think it is hard to say because, well, as an example, I never looked forward to being a piss slut. More to the point, at the start it was a hard limit. But as I grew more comfortable with him as a person and as I came to trust him, I was open to trying and now that I'm mostly there I am enjoying it. He has lots of things in mind and always hints at stuff and I can never predict him. So I'm sure whatever comes up I'll be surprised and nervous and probably not want to do it at first.

Wow, I must have struck a sweet spot with my questions! I'm not gonna quote all that or I'd double the page length... But thank you for the comprehensive answer, and all the spirit you put into it, too!

I'm actually interested in the hypnosis stuff myself, could you elaborate on how you were conditioned to respond to queues? Let's say I'm dabbling, no trigger words yet, but general conditioning is going well.

Also, I highly recommend checking out Deep Rock Galactic, it's a 4-player coop game but 2 players makes for a really comfy time. I suspect you two can find ways to work kink into it easily enough, and since it's not PvP, it'll be a little more fair to you, no chance of getting punished because Reaper made it his personal mission to kill your dom lol

hehe they were great questions! I was just telling my Dom how I thought I would be shy, but when I get to talk about him and the fun stuff we do it's really easy to just ramble on and on.

Well most of the training has happened on my end. We have several, but for that one in particular, every single time I went to the restroom I would focus on the word. Eventually I couldn't go to the restroom without thinking of it. Now it just makes sense. I see it, I go. It took like, several months of doing this to be as natural as it is now.

hehehehehe I suggested to him that we play deep rock galactic after he told me he wouldn't be playing Overwatch anymore. I love DRG personally!~ The main problem isn't that he isn't interested, but more so that we just spend so much time doing so many things, we literally are just running out of time to do all the fun stuff we want to do! DRG is certainly on the list though.

Great to hear your detailed responses! Some questions from my side:
-->to what extend is (hidden) public part of your activities?
-->what hypnosis have you been in to?
-->are you (normally) free to use the toilet or do you have to ask?
-->is your clothing controlled?
-->do you do sports?

Hello thank you!

Public play? Well we don't do a super lot of that mostly because, well, I don't leave the house very often, and I'm scared of people when I do xD. We do do some though! Things like wearing plugs to work, wearing my belt out, wearing underwear with strategically cut holes in it, lingerie instead of underwear, though usually I wear no underwear at all. That actually started as a misunderstanding on my end. I'm not allowed to wear clothes at home, at all, and well I took that to mean no underwear when out, and so I just stopped doing that, later when I told him he informed me it wasn't a requirement xD oops.

Hypnosis? Nothing complicated. Just trigger words that cause certain behaviors. Right now the main ones are one that will cause me to relax, I love that one. It just makes me feel something very similar to sub-space. Subservient, small, and no brain left. And of course another word that will make me piss myself right away, if I need to go of course. I like that one... less than the first one xD. There's some other small things but those are the main two.

When I am talking to my Dom or I know that he is around, I must ask permission, to which he usually makes me piss in some embarrassing or humiliating way, or he uses the trigger word and I just wet myself wherever I happen to be. I guess I'm just lucky I'm not permitted to wear clothes at home or I would be doing much more laundry.

Well, my clothing is pretty basic on it's own so there's not much to control as far as the clothing itself is concerned. What I mean to say is, every single article of clothing that I own is black xD even the lingerie my Dom got me is black. Behaviors around clothes however are strictly controlled, which is to say, the moment I walk in the door I strip naked and I'm not allowed to put clothes on again until I leave my room. Also if my roommate isn't home then I'm naked also outside of my room too.

No I don't really. Unless you consider endurance bondage a sport xD. It should be a sport as far as I'm concerned. Maintaining a squat with nothing but your nipples holding you up would be in the Olympics if it were up to me.

Thank you for your questions! Don't hesitate to ask if you have any more :3

What's one thing you want done to you that you haven't had done?
What's your favorite sex position?
What's your biggest turn-on?
Big spoon or little spoon?
Favorite place to be touched?
What's your favorite type of foreplay?
What's something that gives you butterflies?
Do you prefer to give or receive?
What's something you secretly fantasize about?
Strangest item you've ever considered using as a sex toy?
What's something people would be surprised to know about you?
Are you a spitter, swallower or painter ?
Have you ever sent someone a nude pic?
Have you ever had phone sex? cam sex ?
Most orgasms in one sex encounter ?

https://dirtycode.io/

fill out your dirty code and post the link

I can tell these are copied and pasted because some of them don't make sense given my post and previous answers, but I'm still required to answer them and will happily do so :3.

This ones tough, I have done almost all of my fantasies I had growing up. Little Yelena would be proud. I'm not sure I have an answer for this. I'm sure there are things, but I just don't know what they are yet!

Bound :3

Denial xD

The smallest possible spoon.

Interestingly, my hip. For some reason that spot makes me shiver. Not really sexually it just feels so good. I've even discovered that I have phantom sense in VR for most of my body but especially my hip.

Kneeling at my partner's feet while being pet.

After leaving true sub-space and thinking back about just how little control I really had over myself.

What is the context? I prefer to give head than receive it, but I prefer to receive spanks than to give them. This question doesn't make sense without context.

Nothing I fantasize about is a secret. I've told my Dom everything I could about me when it comes to this kind of stuff, and I guess I will be required to tell everyone on here if I'm asked the right questions.

My Dom has had me fuck myself with zucchini before. I guess I wasn't the one who considered it an option, he was, but I think it still counts for the purposes of this question.

That I'm as kinky as I am xD. I don't super hide it really, it is a large part of who I am, but I would assume most people I interact with don't quite know the true depth of my depravity.

Swallow, of course.

My Dom, and only my Dom.

I'm Deaf so, xD no phone sex. Plenty of internet sex and kink sessions though, obviously. No cam sex either, but that's just because I hate my appearance and get anxious.

10 or so, but that was a long long time ago. Now I'm lucky to have one a month.

https://dirtycode.io/EKKVN

all these questions were mine. They were copied and pasted from my post.
and you missed the dirtycode at the bottom

I know they are from your other posts, that's what I was saying :3.

There is a link at the bottom of my post to my profile on that site <3.

A quick clarification
 

Before I post the dare, I wanted to know what your limit is for being in public places. I know you mentioned you don't do openly public but would something in the woods be acceptable for example?
I have something I would like for you to try but I understand that it might not be for you. Although your owner would potentially have a lot of control over the specifics of this challenge so I expect they would use their own discretion.

P.S. This would be by first ever request, I am newer than new to all this.

Unfortunately I don't really have very many options for specifically private woods super close to me, I am mostly near a city, but I'm sure I could think of place that would work for whatever you're thinking :3 if you want to send the task and just specify "somewhere outdoors and private" I can do my best to make it work! And yes I'm sure he would love having control over whatever parts of it you would like him to. He will probably just pick the meanest option though so xD if you don't want that then I would recommend specifying everything yourself <3 also welcome to get dare! I'm fairly new too so don't worry, the account is old but I've only really done two posts xD.