TeenDream

So, I don't know why I always post here, maybe it is because no one knows me.

Past few months have been hard. The trust I had was shot, the whole new world thing broken, my everything broke. I just don't know what to do. I hate hurting, I hate being hurt and I just hate it all. Sometimes the pain is so real it takes over my whole body, and because of what? Some stupid little boy who doesn't get how NOT to screw over a girl? All I want, all I NEED is an explanation, but I can't seem to...

There are times I just get trapped in the past. Everything floods back and I'm drowned by whatever memory decides to haunt me. This has been happening more often than it used to, I can't truly explain it... It just makes me sad, empty... Alone.
Maybe that's just it, maybe I am alone, and no one truly wants to break it to me?
I look at everyone one around me, all of my family and convince myself that, that isn't the case.
In the back of my mind I just wish I were alone, so I could...

When I was younger I used to dream of someone holding me close, close and tight. Stroking my hair gently, laying with me somewhere, just relaxing me. I could feel his arms holding me tight, I heard his heart beat, I felt him breath. Sometimes I would be running, and there they'd be. By my side, looking over at me, holding my hand, smiling. I don't know what I was running from, I know that I was scared, I knew that if I got caught something would happen. I couldn't put a face to this person, I just knew...