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We all know that joke about how if a woman says she's fine, you should worry because she's not fine and actually planning to kill you.

So when I was growing up, we were taught that fine really means


And that using that word is bad. Because it means you're holding things in. But I never really understood what was so bad about having a word for "feelings inside not expressed." Maybe that's exactly what I want to...

Hello, gD!

It's been an awfully long time since I've blogged. A few things have happened.

I went to England to see awesome things (including my Almost). And it was AH-MAZE-ING. I brought home so many cool things (fudge and a sparkly leather jacket are among my favorites). And getting to meet Almost and do all the things we had only been able to talk about doing was even better than I thought it would be. There was an awful lot of fuzzy-headedness and in the best way....

... a friend told me recently. Settle down into what?, I thought. I don't feel particularly unsettled now. Ok, my social life is currently on the "unsettled" end of the conventional scale. But I have a slightly obsessive personality. Until I feel that I have explored this wonderful alternative lifestyle I've been introduced to fully enough to have a firm grasp on what part I want it to play in my life and what I want from it, I'm going to continue to focus a majority of my attention here. Will...

I've never experienced subspace, but I think I go into cuddle-space, chocolate- (and other tasty food) space, rope-space, and maybe motorcycle-space. These are some of my most memorable experiences. I won't be able to be quite as articulate about them as I normally am. I'm afraid there just aren't words for some things. And my head gets fuzzy during these times, which doesn't help.

The scent of the chocolate... the deep, rich taste of it... I was lost on a beautiful, blissful trip. I hum and close

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I don't know if I'd say my growth game is strong... but I've changed. I'm not the same person who signed up after stumbling in here through a nipple clamp review. The following are labels I currently identify as and am working on defining better for myself.

submissive: Not a lot of people get to see it, but it's there. My biggest kink is control. But control is a tricky thing....