Getting closer to reaching my 125 accident point limit...

I recently updated my accident point counter and saw that I day 44 points left before I have to go through potty training again. With my point counters resetting at the end of June, and 2 and a half months till then, I'm finding myself become more nervous as I see my counter climb higher.

The hypnosis files and on and off wearing and use of diapers seems to be having an affect on my ability to hold, because I find myself leaking a little into my panties through out the day. Not always enough to count as an accident, but enough for me to wish for my training panties or a diaper.

Today as I was working I noticed that I was leaking and tried to stop it, as I wasn't able to leave my work for the potty. Trying to hold it in didn't work, and I relaxed shortly after tensing, and physically crossing my legs did nothing.

I find myself needing to go to the bathroom more often during the day, and at night it feels like I can't drink before bed or ill have to get up 3 or 5 times to use the restroom. I find myself able to hold for shorter amounts of times compared to even a year ago.

I don't think I'll stop listening to the files or wearing diapers when I can, but I can't help but ask myself the question: hypnosis only works on the willing, so would it be working on my if I really didn't want it?

Most of me hopes that I don't actually cross the line of having to potty train again, but another part of me keeps pushing me farther that I ever thought I'd go.


Feel free to comment, I'd love to hear your thoughts.