Yesterday I was left to my own devices. RST has better things to do than to play with this piggy on the weekends.

I found myself desperate and aching and needy. I've become so accustomed to degrading myself for his amusement that when he's not there, I still crave it.

The guest house I stayed in last night has 7 cottages which look out onto a central area. I left the curtains open and stripped completely naked. All afternoon the curtains remained open and I was getting up...

I have been a gD member for a while now. Not as long as some others, of course. But I still kind of feel like a gD veteran.

I have come and gone and come back a few times, mostly for the chat but also to browse the forums once in a while just to see if there is anything interesting.

What I'm finding is that, lately, I've felt like I've come home. I feel safe here. I've started to be myself again and I've felt myself become my little self when in chat lately. My playfulness...

Yesterday RST had better things to do than to play with this slut, so I was left to my own devices.

When I drove I made sure my udders were hanging out as he wants them to be. I haven't worn underwear either, as I know he prefers me moments away from exposure.

Didn't get up to a lot of dares, but I went on a game drive and saw elephants

Slept naked because RST prefers it that way. I also managed half an hour of naked exercise with the curtains closed ...

Last week I was sitting in the parking lot of a local "guy" (car stuff, tools, etc.) store, waiting while Mr. Devious shopped for a birthday gift for his dad. It just so happens that on that day (November 5th) in 2016, I was sitting in the exact same spot, doing the exact same thing - searching getDare while I waited.

It was that day that I came across a blog written by a user whose name at the time was Jaroface. He wrote about how he was kinky but he wasn't sure if he was submissive....

Being a Domme can be heavy burden to bare. It is a lot of responsibility - or at least it should be! When you ask somebody to be yours, you are committing to their well being, to their safety, to their best interest. At least this is how I feel as a Domme.

I spend a lot of time thinking about worrying about the horrible things that I make my subs do, about the things that I forbid them from doing, about the impact that I want to have in their lives. Sometimes I lose sleep about it. I...

Today started with a shameful piss. I was in the squatting whore position on the toilet and couldn't help but sprinkle a bit of piss on the floor. My orders from RST were to press my face into this and say "I am a dirty filth pig" while rubbing the piss into my skin. I was allowed a 2-minute shower to clean myself.

I woke up covered in writing from last night and the shame made me cringe.

Today I am dressed in piggy clothing for breakfast and am not wearing any...

Today was a travel day.

My first piss of the day was squatting over the tub as instructed. I cleaned myself with cold water and then moved along to breakfast.

I spent a good portion of the day doing such mundane tasks as driving and buying groceries.

Today I wore a black dress with easy udder access and a white bra, no panties. I drove with my udders out again to reinforce my pig status.

I am on a farm tonight, listening to the sheep in the...