Top 10: 2018 Kink Wishlist Recap
Tags denial, dom, feminisation, naked, toy
At the end of 2017, I wrote a blog detailing the things I wanted to do in the following year and was recently reminded that I should really do a follow up to see how I got along with my kinky filth-list.
Although I'm quite late posting this 6 months into the year it is fun looking back at how much I've grown over the past 18 months and also make me keen to write a whole new list...
- Feminisation - It’s fair to say I took this about as far as I could without breaking my limits per permanent body changes (shaving) or social suicide (makeup etc). I think most people probably think of me as “Jessica” on here and I definitely managed to take this further than expected with regular panty wearing, a very pretty & girly profile as well, cross-dressing a few times most weeks and of course my new username
It also affected me in unexpected ways, allowing a certain freedom from any guilt that tends to irregularly flood over me with kink play. A certain buffer that keeps my mind healthy but also still allows me to explore further and is something I very much enjoy even as it becomes the new norm I get taken off guard occasionally when I notice just how girly I’ve allowed myself to get. - Sleep naked - This proved even easier than expected as I occasionally do this when I take short breaks from panty wearing at nights (dicklets need to breathe too!) There’s still something that I find vaguely exciting about it, which is less than ideal for getting to sleep, although lately, I’m finding myself more uncomfortable with clothes at night. I think I’m just an awkward sleeper but this has gone from being too kinky to sleep doing to a new acceptable & vaguely exciting way to sleep for me.
- Longer term denial - Be careful what you wish for seems like opportune phrase here. 1 year without a full orgasm! I didn’t quite expect to get quite so into it but I found myself intoxicated with each denial spell and drunkenly asking for more denial each time. It seems that my Mistress also got super into it too as I somehow managed to get to the year mark although now am definitely appreciating the rare orgasms I get a lot more.
Now I’ve done something that extreme I’m not sure I’d like to do it again and I’ve enjoyed the irregular special orgasms I’ve been allowed since then which do make play sessions a little more special. That being said regular boring orgasms watching vanilla porn which I regularly did all that time ago don’t particularly excite me anymore. - Longer term dom someone - This is something I didn’t quite manage, although do have a few play partners to give occasional tasks/switch with I never found anyone I’d be lucky enough to call my sub. With being dommed for 2018 it was hard to find the time or, often, the inclination to anyway if I’m honest. Being a slave took most of my time & energy but now I’m free this is something I’m looking for albeit just something casual.
- Hidden public - I experimented with this a fair bit with butt plug wearing, panty wearing (of course) and even took it to the stage of fully stripping off outdoors. I loved doing all these although was also more conscious that I probably wouldn’t want to include anyone unconsenting in my kink play; reading or watching such scenes is a huge turn on for me but I’m now certain real-world play is far scarier with the real risk of freaking the hell out of someone or even getting locked up in an entirely un-fun way.
- Buy a sex toy - Accomplished first with a ball gag & chastity cage through to butt plugs, nipple clamps and ropes my secret sex drawer is now rather full (along with my girly clothes). I may will have over accomplished this
I don’t always get around to playing with them as much as I like though although have, broadly speaking, loved them when I have played with them and they add a new dimension to sessions. - Bondage Rope Play - And proving my point on underplaying with toys I’ve used my rope sparingly. I enjoy it more than expected; visually I’ve always loved bondage play but there’s a certain lack of predicament with self-bondage play that does lower the excitement a tad. I’m also not sure I’ve quite got the mind for learning about ties either as my mind seems to turn to goo following even the most well-written instructions. Thinking in 3-dimensional space makes my head hurt!
- Make myself cry through pain - Although I’ve played around with pain in the last year and half I’ve never really got close to this despite epically long sessions of ass spanking (2000) and playing with more CBT it’s very hard to actually push myself that far. CBT play comes closest and there certainly are even casual voyeurs sadistic enough to push me on public cam beyond what I’d do myself with (increasing the number of hits between ever decreasing time to edge is a standard and very enjoyable game with one of my “regulars”). However, I think this would need another person doing the hurting.
- Toilet Play - As my Mistress wasn’t remotely into this I never really experimented with it and even moved it into my limits for a little while as, simply put, I was more interested in exploring other things. It’s still something I’d like to do more of, among other types of degradation themed play, as I have to admit to enjoying this in the past and still regularly enough watching porn around this theme so the general interest is still there.
- Enjoy anal - I’ve poked, prodded, dildoed, plugged, fucked hard, fucked slow and tried just about every combination yet I just get little real exciting tingly feeling down there. However I have learned things about my body in general; bending over while stood feels least worse, fingering before dildoing help and my dicklet won’t stand tall during it no matter what I do. It’s still very much a “meh” feeling for me but not a total loss experimenting with it to learn about my body and my new vibrating butt plug is certainly interesting, although it's too early to say whether I like it.
Although I'm quite late posting this 6 months into the year it is fun looking back at how much I've grown over the past 18 months and also make me keen to write a whole new list...
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What an awesome list! Well done on all of them
. Im a toilet play fan myself so I recommend. If youd like to chat or play with a friendly sub, let me know.Posted 05-30-2019 at 11:58 AM by Sexyminx86 
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Great to read your experience in these. Many of these I like myself so it's good to read someone else's experiences.
Sleeping naked is something I always do. If I have to wear something I get annoyed that my penis can't roam free.
Don't you find it a challenge to hide so many sex toys? I know I do. I don't ever want someone to find them.
You really did a year!? Wow! I thought I was good at denial but I'm not sure I could do THAT long!Posted 05-30-2019 at 06:57 PM by Jaro
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I must admit I love your number 1. Though, I am a bit biased as I like to fwmininize others.
And 3, i like people denied. (Because I am part demon
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As for 10, I am glad you got to experiment with it. It didn't get to the enjoyment stage but, you can say you gave it a chance.Posted 05-31-2019 at 01:57 PM by LitDarkness
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Thanks for the kind comment. I have to admit toilet play is something I'd be keener to do if the clean up wasn't often so bad. At the moment it's a vague interest but something I think I'd like.Quote:What an awesome list! Well done on all of them
Yep, I do! I have 1 drawer in my room that's private and it's very full along with the hidden bit behind. I have had anxiety dreams about it though so it does bother me, particularly when I first started buying them but I feel more comfortable with it now (the level of enjoyment vs low risk now of anyone going routing makes logical sense to me, even if my subconscious occasionally freaks out).Quote:Don't you find it a challenge to hide so many sex toys? I know I do. I don't ever want someone to find them.
I did not know that...but definitely knew thatQuote:I must admit I love your number 1. Though, I am a bit biased as I like to fwmininize others.
And 3, i like people denied. (Because I am part demon ). I think feminisation is something I'd like to push more still even if it's hard to go much further so maybe you can help me get even girlier yet Posted 06-01-2019 at 05:01 PM by PrincessJessica
