diaper boy, diaper baby, diaper slave I am looking for education

I've been wearing diapers since I was born and I stand by it today, it wasn't always like that, I used to hate diapers and everything that had to do with them. i was born with a piece of open back, which caused nerve damage in my spine and caused bladder incontinence, i am wet very often every night and every day. At that time I was the only diaper wearer in the whole school, mocking and Hanselein were the order of the day. Classmates teased me, called me baby and trouser pisser. At home there was my stepfather, a total pig, he constantly checked me when we were alone at home. My mother traveled abroad often and for long periods of time. My stepfather kept nabbing me against my will, even though I could do it myself, I was photographed in diapers and wet clothes, I tried to refuse and I was immediately beaten and slapped. It became more and more extreme, brutal, worse, the whole thing went on for many years and I think that today I have my submissive inclination and this fetish that I have with my handicap, today I have a fetish with children and baby clothes that I wear
what I'm looking for are people who are dominant, and like an education on me and are looking to really force me to do things they want, send this with pictures as proof, or like to educate me further in the field of diapers, maybe too a shit boy. Someone who has to fill their diapers on purpose, someone who determines how long the diapers have to be worn, locked with a time lock. Wearing children's or baby's clothes. Powder, oil and lotion like a baby to then be a shit, your imagination should have no limits, strict, hard, maybe blackmail?