A glimpse of morning light fell into my eyes as a kiss on my neck awoke me. My pajama pants were already at my knees, his hands continuing to strip them off completely. They would be a nasty obstacle to spread my legs however he wanted. My body was already halfway on the side and my stomach, so with little effort, his arms completed the turn and had me face the mattress. Pressing his weight on me was one of his favorites, making me even more helpless than I already was. His body enjoyed pushing me around...

Day 10

I was to take my dildo with me to work today. Between 10am and 11am, I was to have the dildo in. Also, between the hours of 1pm and 3pm.
And time I returned to my car, I was to rub my clit for fifteen seconds. (I'm a delivery driver.) Finally, I was to edge in the morning before going into work.

The task was quite exciting. I was able to hide the rubbing of my clit by doing things such as putting on my seatbelt or pulling up instructions for the next delivery,...

**Trigger warning: Self harm**

Growing up, my coping mechanism was self harm. This took on many different forms over the years but the how isn't important. The why on the other hand deserves a bit more thought.

People self harm for a lot of different reasons, and for me that was also true.

Sometimes I would self harm in places where people would see. I would do this to get the attention that I craved so much. You see, emotional abuse has no physical markers....

I have never done more denial without chastity then just a few hours on my own, pleasuring myself without orgasm on purpose. I admire those who can deny themselves for days, week, and months on end without help by a chastity device. I don't know if I could do that, never tried.

But, I have explored chastity a bit so far. Besides locking myself on my own for getting tasks done, and to arouse myself, my longest chastity time so far was a good two weeks.

I have acquired many...

I'm sorry for not updating yesterday. I will make a point to do better in the future.

A shame, too, my message logs won't date back far enough for me to be able to write everything that happened to me Monday. I will do my best to recall everything to the best of my memory.


Day 7:

Miss gave me the task of rolling a dice after each of my chores. The number rolled would determine how many edges I did. Even numbers were to be divided by two. I remember...

My sexuality:

My first orgasm:
I can’t really remember my first orgasm.
I was young and played with myself. I also remember watching porn. Something I found on kink.com
It was about a girl who gets spanked. I think it was the first time I saw a spanking video and the thought really got me going. I played with my clit and suddenly all my muscles tensed. I think I panicked back then, but it was still a good feeling.

My first masturbation:
I think...

Likes: Anal, BDSM, Bodywriting, Exhibitionism, Humiliation, Oral, Pet Play, Water Sports.
Limits: CBT, Controlled Masturbation, Excessively Long Tasks, Orgasms, Social Suicide.

Toys: blindfold, buttplugs/dildos, funnel gag, handcuffs, markers, nipple clamps, and a locking collar and leash


My masters have thought up some PM Dares for me. Please PM me with any other suggestions.
CUM (number)-> I will eat my next (number) loads
PLUGGED (number)...