Breath play
Breath play has always been something that I have said was outside my risk profile, however, I have always found porn with themes of breath play really hot. Lately I have been fantasizing about exploring breath play just a bit irl. Maybe I would be sitting at my computer, doing some work, and he would appear and with the simple command "hold your breath", I would stop breathing and wait desperately for him to allow me to take a breath. An even more exciting scenario is being...

For anybody who knows me to any degree, probably knows that I have always wanted a puppy. I even wrote a blog about it here.

However, for some reason the grown ups in my life have always voted against me and told me that I am not old enough (even though that is complete BS since I am a responsible grown up!) Instead, I have been blessed with three kitties, out Pasta Cats.

(Spaghetti, Fettucine & Penne)

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I have struggled to write this blog for over a week now. I am still numb but also very deeply hurt. After 2.5 years, Gerbil.boy and I are no longer together.

I don't regret loving him. I don't hate him. I don't think I ever could. But knowing that I had invested more in the relationship than he ever could, and that the decision to walk away from me seemed to come so easily to him ... it hurts.

I wouldn't change the fact that I gave my heart to him. It's what I do. I wear...

I was recently asked if I could update my toy list so I figured it is about time so here we go

Dildos:
- Large vibrating dildo complete with balls
- Regular suction cup that bends
- Large purple one (can be attached to my strapon harness

Vibrators:
- Small hitachi magic wand
- 3 Bullet vibrators of different sizes

Anal:
- Large black butt plug
- Small blue beaded plug
- Black silicon anal beads
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My report on a dare I was given to do while on holiday.

The dare I was given - You must go for a walk on a sunny day following a proper public footpath. You must be wearing tight fitting briefs as underwear. At some point of the walk you must remove your trousers/shorts and put them in your bag. Then you must walk a minimum of 2 miles in just your underpants and a T-Shirt. A few conditions to add-:

You are not allowed to go off the proper path for any reason.
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*trigger warning - self harm*

Sometimes life can feel overwhelming. It's been a bumpy road - as life is. The beginning of this year has been extra bumpy.

I have had to be brave, strong, dependant, responsible and all adulty for a long time. The emotions have built up. Between work and home it seems to be never ending. I am constantly in the driver's seat. I crave release.

Today is Mother's Day and it is such a hard day for me. But I haven't shared that with...

I finally got some much needed time to myself at home, and did not put it to waste. A few days ago I saw this roulette, Peg Race, and it captured my imagination. Originally I planned to use six of my dildos. After I got going, I decided to skip one (the red dildo with a slight bend) that was too similar in circumference and length to the previous one.

I found a long video to have on in the background while I completed my task and set off. Dildo one was no challenge at all, and I had taken...