An update and an apology

Hello fellow Getdarians!
Okay...I’ll start with the apology and then get to the update...
So those that follow me here will know I can dip in and out of this site a bit, the last couple of months or so I have not even logged in...
Now in the past frustration has led me to leave, but this time it was purely lifestyle, I’ve had a very busy few months, I’ve been involved in a big project at work that’s led me to a lot of overtime, due to the summer weather I’ve been out and about socialising a lot more and I’ve kind of had a girlfriend recently...the latter may be ending soon however.
But I’m apologising because I tried to start up some Boys Versus Girls gameshows, this got simply abandoned with no word and I feel bad for the people who were getting into it, I wish I had been able to continue...but life kind of got in the way, I’m glad my random messathon post is thriving however!
As much as I am busy lately, I still hold this site as a special place for me...and boy, have some of the things here given me inspiration for some kinky play I’ve had lately
This site can teach you a lot and give you ideas, that’s for sure...sadly not in the messy department for which I’m famous for, apart from a little whipped cream and chocolate...
I will try to check in a little more now, for however busy life gets I will never forget this site.

I’ll now talk a little about this relationship I’ve had, I finally met a Polish girl who was curious to try a few kinky things, I’ve tied her up, used ice, done a little spanking, given quite a few forced orgasms, etc...it has honestly been a lot of fun and I really enjoyed it, we played a few games together and did some betting, but this was a little less successful as I tended to win most of the games and this got a little frustrating for my partner...I always play to win and take competition quite seriously.
Now sadly it looks like the fun may have ended, as we have gotten closer she has started to worry we are getting too close and we may end up hurting each other emotionally, she is trying to pursue a career outside of the city we currently live and if we become too emotionally attached that could be an issue, she also has some issues from a former relationship which is causing her to push herself away and I feel powerless to do anything.
I am giving her space to think and to pull myself away to stop giving her any pressure, this is hard because honestly...well she’s been the best thing that’s happened to me in this department, but what can I do?
She’s told me not to fall in love with her, the future is uncertain and to complicate matters further we work together, as I have seen her push away I’ve felt pain, the little things we did together like go for walks and play Pokemon Go for example she no longer has time for, instead she spends time at home reading and trying to prepare herself for this career she wants to pursue.
We are both on different holidays as such at the moment and we will see what happens when we reunite after the break, but emotionally I’m preparing for the worst, and as much as I hate the idea of looking for something else, I may be faced with that soon. But this is life, I am used to things being complicated in this department, at least we’ve had some good times together and I will always treasure that.

So maybe I’ll start to post some more on here soon, may even look again for some messy bets to make with girls here, I do miss the excitement of betting/playing to compete for who gets a messy forfeit, even though it can be hard to find girls who like the same as me, this has always been the best place to find that kind of interaction...and it’s been a while since I’ve risked any humiliation haha, if any female members fancy that kind of thing I’m just a PM away

In the meantime, I’ll continue my busy life and see where things go, but as I’ve said I’ll try to check in and see how things are going on here