A random assortment of reports, thoughts, ramblings and information. Pretty much a view inside my wonderfully complicated, sometimes broken, and entertaining mind.
Curiousity
I have always been somebody who is super cautious and sometimes very picky. I like to play things safe and don't always like trying new things. I am a very picky eater and I don't like change.
However, when it comes to BDSM and my D/s relationships/lifestyle, I have always been very open to trying and learning new things. There is no other way to learn what you truly like, love or hate.
I have grown so much over the past few years since I started experimenting with things that I was curious about. A lot of that has to do with having a wonderful man to experiment with. He provides a safe and comfortable environment for me to experiment and grow and learn.
My curiosity has led us both down new and wonderful paths. I have had things that were once limits, jump to my love list!
And there are still so many more things I would love to try. Here are just a few that have been on my mind:
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Figging
This is something that has always intrigued me. For those that don't know, figging is a practice where you carve a butt plug out of ginger root and put it in your ass. It is supposed to have a tingling to burning sensation, which is intensified if you clench (which you naturally do while being spanked or if you are getting close to orgasm).
The thought of this really turns me on. Maybe it is the unknown, maybe it is my fear of it, or maybe it is the fantasy of being forced to endure something that is uncomfortable and humiliating, but it makes me wet to think about.
At the same time, it makes me sooooo nervous. I would have to be tied down, and I would have to have somebody who pushed me to try it, not letting up until I safeword or the experience is done.
Little side
This might be the topic for a whole other blog post one day, but in short, I have always known that I have little tendencies. A lot of aspects of my personality are "little" like.
However, I have never really been able to explore this any further. I feel silly giving in to those urges, and I have never really let myself succumb fully.
I would love to have a day where I can just be in little space. Where I could have a "daddy" take care of me ... but the thought makes me incredibly blushy and makes me feel silly to even think about it.
Humiliation
This is something I have always considered to be a limit of sorts. However, I have found lately that I like the idea of some things that can only be considered humiliating. I am not talking about degrading me and calling me names that make me feel ashamed, but rather having to perform activities that make me plus.
The thought of being ordered to crawl across the floor to get something, or to strip and stand naked for inspection, or pee with the bathroom door open ... those thoughts make me incredibly horny and blushy and eeeeeks!
Fear play
This one really puzzles me. I hate being scared. I hate haunted houses and scary movies, etc. So I do not understand, why the thought of facing one of my bdsm related fears gets me all hot and bothered.
Maybe it is the lack of control? Being so helpless that I can't help it?
But things like being threatened with being zapped, or left alone, or needles, or wearing a toy in public, whatever little fears I have, it turns me on.
Pet Play
This really intrigues me. I don't know if it is something I would actually enjoy the reality of, but I love the idea of having to wear a little tail, not being able to talk, maybe having my legs hobbled or bound in some way to prevent me from using them, having to eat without the use of my hands, basically being dependent on somebody else for everything! It really intrigues me and turns me on.
Extreme Play
I really don't know how to explain this one. But I have fantasized about a day where I am pushed to my very limits. My whole day revolves around being under his control. I cannot go to the bathroom, eat, drink, do anything without his permission.
I would love to be in some sort of bondage all day, forced to be naked for some part of the day, maybe made to make him cum a few times. He would tease me multiple times throughout the day, but I would not be allowed to cum, and I would not be allowed to complain about it. I would only be able to thank him for touching me.
Being a brat would not be tolerated. I would have to make him lunch with my vibe help between my legs.
He would leave me tied up in the bed after lunch, forced to watch porn with my vibe, just low enough to prevent me from cumming. Later he would turn the porn off, tie me to the bed, blindfold me, put in head phones and leave me alone for an hour.
He would make me learn commands/positions, so just with one word or number, I would have to get in a certain position and wait for him: 1 - kneel with my eyes closed, mouth out waiting for his cock. 2 - strip, stand with my legs spread and arms straight out waiting for inspection 3 - lube myself up and kneel on the bed waiting to be fucked.
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I really hope that I can explore some of these things in the next little while, even if it means we need to enlist the help of somebody else who may have more experience.
Who knows, I might have some new limits, or some new loves. But I won't know until I try!
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Hi,
As you know i play strictly online, and text only with my pet.
But many of the things you we tried, within above context, but i can say,.... Very intense.
Humilation, extreme, fear, pet.
In all cases,... It's extremely essential to have a deep trust. As a dom one should push, stretch the limit, but be extremely responsive, very sensitive to the smalles signals.
It goes with a lot,.. Lot,... Lot of talking, especially before and after. During the scene it's just straight.
I have done a few very extreme humiliating scenes with my pet. (She reported one in her blog). I just like to humiate her to the extreme, until crying. But i also pull her out,... Especially humiliation should be accompanied by a string pullout afterwards. A sub will only be capable to fully openup for humiation if she knows she will be pulled out safely. A dom should do it. Only if he is prepared to fully bring his sub back on earth he should dare to push her off first.
So,... Yes you can.....
But it should be a like of assvlr, only if he truely wants it will happen. I'm 100% sure he will pull you out, but he also will need to like to bring you down. If its not a like i guess he will not be capable. No blame... It's quite extreme,... It really must be a doms like to get it right.
I guess "assist" will not work. Assvlr will be the only one you will be honestly able to do this with.
Luck!Posted 11-06-2016 at 04:27 AM by sir stefan 
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I guess by "assist" I meant more having somebody who has more experience than either of us in a certain area. For example, we have not explored DD/lg at all! Because of that, we may both be interested but we don't know anything about where to start etc. So to have somebody aid us in talking about it, sharing their experience etc. Would be a huge help.
I trust Asslvr explicitly and he is amazing at aftercare so I am never worried about any path that he leads me down. I know he will always keep me safe both physically and mentally. However he will not be willing to trying something that extreme without more confidence in his own abilities when it comes to these forms of play.
We have also been open in the past to playing with another Dom who can act as a mentor that we can both learn from. Trust would need to be built as well over time, but I am still very much interested in that type of help as long as Asslvr is always involved and making sure I am safe.Posted 11-06-2016 at 08:27 AM by Butterfly
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Figging sounds rather interesting actually, didn't even think of that. I myself really like humiliation, both verbal and otherwise and, like you, I have trouble understanding 'fear play'. I have feared a harsh punishment in the past which I ended up having to do too. That was actually fear for me and I really didn't like it.
But I myself call this a form of emotional masochism which might still work depending on the correct amount of fear being applied. It's a very delicate thing to make work I guess.Posted 11-06-2016 at 09:05 AM by Jaro
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Mhh, i think i will write a blog about humiliation soon. It's such an interesting thing. Oh for sure. Your trust in asslvr is enough to make it work.Quote:Originally Posted by Butterfly
I guess by "assist" I meant more having somebody who has more experience than either of us in a certain area. For example, we have not explored DD/lg at all! Because of that, we may both be interested but we don't know anything about where to start etc. So to have somebody aid us in talking about it, sharing their experience etc. Would be a huge help.
I trust Asslvr explicitly and he is amazing at aftercare so I am never worried about any path that he leads me down. I know he will always keep me safe both physically and mentally. However he will not be willing to trying something that extreme without more confidence in his own abilities when it comes to these forms of play.
We have also been open in the past to playing with another Dom who can act as a mentor that we can both learn from. Trust would need to be built as well over time, but I am still very much interested in that type of help as long as Asslvr is always involved and making sure I am safe.
For me,.. I can only make it work as a punishment. And if i say punishment i mean: i must really feel that my pet made a mistake that did hurt me, i must really feel that she needs a harsh punishment, a punishment that hurts.
And at the same time, i must feel so overly happy that she does that for me, that she does that to correct her mistake.
Likewise,... It also only works if my pet truely feels she fucked up. That she feels she did hurt me, and that she wants to makeup. And that she knows it will be all ok after the punishment. That i enjoyed it, that she did it for me.Posted 11-06-2016 at 10:39 AM by sir stefan
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Hey! To anyone curious about figging, I personally didn't find it too bad. I found that it was easier to handle the burning pain when I was rubbing my clit with a CLEAN hand with no ginger residue on it at all. After that I worked up to it with no stimulation and later having ginger on my clit too.
It might help if you experiment with something with a less intensity, like toothpaste. Though, remember to be careful safety wise. I'm sure you know all about that though
For me, I adore chemical play with icy hot/chilis/etc. so it makes it a bit easier, but ginger is something that does burn for a good 45 mins afterwards so you have to be aware of that and sitting does not feel so good after play.
Good luck, and have fun If you have any other questions, feel free to message me!Posted 11-06-2016 at 06:36 PM by SluttyPig
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Thank you Butterfly for sharing this blog post, and thank you SP for the informative commentPosted 11-06-2016 at 06:49 PM by Joan Sky
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You're very welcomeQuote:Originally Posted by joansky
Thank you Butterfly for sharing this blog post, and than you SP for the informative comment
Posted 11-06-2016 at 06:56 PM by SluttyPig
