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Week one Denial Recap

Posted 12-09-2018 at 06:17 PM by Phaade

So to first start this Blog I want to apologize and explain why I will start the Denial period again.

To start this Blog off I will tell you how the week went.
So the first thing is that I had quite alot of work to do and so I was busy and maybe had more distraction which helped at the start!

Beginning my first week of the denial I didn't change much in my daily routine.
Getting up, taking a shower and general hygiene things (basically getting ready for the day), getting something to eat, gaming/drawing/watching anime or series and then working until late. Last thing is mostly a bit of gaming with friends or visiting GetDare of course.
And of course porn or erotic content. I visit some reddit or tumblr blogs and then some sites I enjoy. BIG MISTAKE!

Looking at pornographic content while denied is a really dumb idea. And I have to admit that I was tempted to cum when I jerked off to it.

Now that was basically the first few days of the week and nothing much happened. I didn't get myself to leave the sites out entirely so I jerked everyday and edged alot, almost more than I normally do.
Now yesterday was a really shitty day and I had like 14 hours of work to do and didn't get home from 8 am to like 11 pm. When i arrived back home I just needed to blow some steam and decided to do another edging session.
I just couldn't restrain myself. On the 4th edge I came and I couldn't bring myself to ruin it so I had a full orgasm just one week into denial.

I am so furious about myself and it really bums me that I couldn't do it longer and I even thought of just pretending I did it to be honest. It felt like I was letting all the people down who added and participated in my Thread and I didn't want that. But when I made this new Account I wanted a fresh and honest start so Im not gonna lie about it.
I did fail and I really regret it so I will start the Period again.

This time I will not visit any pornographic websites and will not edge. I will leave that to after the Denial because I fear I will fail again.

Im really sorry about that
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  1. Old Comment
    DaVance's Avatar
    Just a little suggestion here. Maybe it would be easier if you started to read poetry instead of watching porn. Try this poem by T.H. Palmer first:


    Try, Try Again

    'Tis a lesson you should heed,
    If at first you don't succeed,
    Try, try again;

    Then your courage should appear,
    For if you will persevere,
    You will conquer, never fear
    Try, try again;

    Once or twice, though you should fail,
    If you would at last prevail,
    Try, try again;

    If we strive, 'tis no disgrace
    Though we do not win the race;
    What should you do in the case?
    Try, try again

    If you find your task is hard,
    Time will bring you your reward,
    Try, try again

    All that other folks can do,
    Why, with patience, should not you?
    Only keep this rule in view:
    Try, try again.

    Posted 12-09-2018 at 08:26 PM by DaVance DaVance is offline
  2. Old Comment
    CSasha's Avatar
    Yes, don't feel bad. Just try again.
    Posted 12-10-2018 at 04:38 AM by CSasha CSasha is offline
  3. Old Comment
    Phaade's Avatar
    You are right. I think I overreacted and took it to serious.
    Thanks for the support and I will keep trying and improve edging even if I fail from time to time and my Denial will not be completly orgasm free maybe

    But I will make sure to atleast ruin them in the future if I fail
    Posted 12-10-2018 at 04:46 PM by Phaade Phaade is offline
  4. Old Comment
    PrincessJessica's Avatar
    Denial really can be tricky, particularly if you're anything like me in that it turns you on (a particularly cruel trick for your mind to play I think lol). All you can do is try to learn from it; I know from my experience edging when tired & excessive edging when horny were repeating themes with any accidental ruin. Keeping busy as a distraction, trying to be strong with yourself when there's a really good chance of a ruin to stop instead and touching a lot less helped me.

    Glad you didn't give up or lie, I know how silly you feel especially when it's so early so well done for admitting your mistake and jumping back on the denial train. Good luck
    Posted 12-14-2018 at 06:05 PM by PrincessJessica PrincessJessica is offline
  5. Old Comment
    Phaade's Avatar
    Thanks alot! I am really amazed fow much support I get here. I will keep working on myself and of course the denial and edging.
    Posted 12-14-2018 at 06:32 PM by Phaade Phaade is offline
 

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