I believe I am deeply unable to fully and wholeheartedly trust a sadist.
I will trust, but it doesn't matter how much bond, how much good faith, how much promises are made, there is always this part of me that wonders just how much a sadist exactly values consent over their desire to hurt, and if this balance can ever tip to the wrong side.
Maybe my reasoning is wrong, but it's a fear that's just deeply ingrained in me. This part of me just can't fully feel safe without...