A few months ago Sir's toy had gained the courage to talk to Sir on WhatsApp. Because it was really difficult for her at the start, Sir had dropped all the speech rules so she could focus solely on getting more comfortable talking to Sir, we talked casually for many hours total and the tone was more friendly than Dom-Sub most of the time.

Sir's toy might have gotten too comfortable. Sir started not liking how far she was getting of her submissive mindset without honorifics to remind her...

I am continuing to see how there are aspects to our behavior that can be felt in phone calls that add another dimension to the exchanges, it should be obvious, but yeah experiencing it is something else. There are things that can be either perceived as fuckups and social awkwardness or appreciated for the layer of spicy emotions and thoughts they add.

It's awesome to feel safe to not be perfect. Come to think of it, it's not really our social awkwardness, our brain farts, our stuttering,...

Probably the most repeated word for a Sub like me, this word can start to feel (as you might have heard before) as the name of your Dominant in your brain from how often you've had to call them that, and kind of lose the intensity it once had over time.

I am luckily a bit of a mindful person between my journaling and meditating habits, so I can see the machinations of my mind as they happen. This Sub remembers just how powerful this word once felt, and will not let routine, repetition...

The last couple of months, while Sir's pussy was safe of any tortures and sessions focused mainly on tits, Sir's toy found herself in a mindset where she couldn't fantasize about any pussy torture as she used to, she found that she had grown a dislike for that and couldn't get turned on by the idea, pretty much her initial state before online BDSM anyway.

Sir's toy remembers even thinking in disbelief "how did I even manage to enjoy that at some point ?", a common thought for...

I've been telling myself that I've just been too busy to write anymore, or there wasn't anything going on worth writing about, but if I'm honest with myself I could write about almost anything if I just sat down and decided to write. I've abounded blog writing a bit partly for those aforementioned reasons, but I think mostly I just lost my willingness to share, possibly the community didn't seem as thrilling as it was at the start, possibly partly because my Dom himself doesn't visit GD so much so I...

So I woke up with a vaginal infection, one at the very entrance of my hole instead of deep inside, and I didn't have anything but my bad ideas to do about it.

It felt really itchy so I wanted something drastic to clean it with, salt water didn't seem to be enough.

So I thought about using this specialized toothpaste I have, instead of containing just toothpaste it also has some herbs like thyme in it, which are known to fight off bacteria and infection, so I thought it would...

This journal might be regularly updated on commented on with new tasks that I end up doing to earn the permission to cum, there's always more of those and they tend to be at the limits of my comfort zone.

Based on previously approved hentai images I figured that the censoring rues don't apply to drawings the same way they do to photos, so I will post my doodle of this morning's task that I earned my orgasm with, a picture is worth a thousand words, hopefully it's ok.

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