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I am okay-ish

Posted 10-24-2018 at 11:02 AM by Butterfly (The Butterfly Effect)

October was supposed to be my subby month. I was hoping to complete some subby tasks, have extra subby play time and really indulge my subby and little sides. However, that plan went to shit when a scary incident at work triggered some things in my past and left me a complete anxiety filled mess.

I walked away from getDare a few weeks ago and went into hiding. This place, one of my favorite escapes, was no longer feeling like a safe haven. Instead, it has become its own source of anxiety.
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Walking Away

Posted 10-02-2018 at 02:19 PM by Butterfly (The Butterfly Effect)

I need a break.

getDare has always meant so much to me, but lately it has been a source of heartache.

I have been feeling hurt. I have been feeling attacked. I have been feeling so incredibly anxious.

Right now, getDare is not feeling like the happy, safe place it used to be. And so, I need a break.

I am walking away for the rest of the week. I will return on Sunday to help finish the King Election and to "crown" the King. I will
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The Purpose of the Election

Posted 10-01-2018 at 08:02 PM by Butterfly (The Butterfly Effect)

There has been a bit of grumbling about the King & Queen election and so I thought I would just try and smooth out some of the concerns.

Isn't it just a popularity contest? Well sure, of course it is. I mean how can it not be. It is all about showing support for your favorite people on getDare.

However, it isn't JUST a popularity contest.

Why did I create it?

Well there were many reasons ...
  1. I noticed that the forums were
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Subtober

Posted 09-30-2018 at 06:29 PM by Butterfly (The Butterfly Effect)

Lately I have been in a very Dommey headspace. I have a full time sub (Jaro) as well as a few casual play partners that I Top with. It seems that every time I turn around there is somebody new who I am bossing around.

I love being a Domme. I love being toppy, but at the same time, my subby side has been severely neglected the past few months. I crave that submission. I crave giving up control. I need it. I want it.

And while I am being Dommey, it is hard for me to get
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*Trigger Warning* To the person who sexually assaulted me

Posted 09-29-2018 at 07:38 PM by Butterfly (The Butterfly Effect)

When we started to talk, I was in a vulnerable place. I felt isolated from my friends and family. I was in a bad relationship (but you didn't know that). I was looking for somebody to talk to, to confide in, to be friends with. I let my guard down.

I lied to you. I was not happy with my fiance. But I liked to protect myself. I didn't want to open myself up to the possibility of you getting the wrong idea. I was very clear with you that I was looking for friends only.

My
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I am not ok

Posted 09-29-2018 at 06:48 PM by Butterfly (The Butterfly Effect)
Updated 09-29-2018 at 06:57 PM by Butterfly

As I sit here and write this, my chest is still tight. It hurts to breathe. I have started this blog about 10 times now and wiped everything that I have written. The truth is, I really don't know how to describe the feelings that are happening inside me.

The thing is, I thought I was doing better. It has been awhile since I have had such a flare up in anxiety. It has been years and years since I have had more than one anxiety attack in a week.

I have no explanation for
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Entitlement

Posted 09-25-2018 at 01:43 PM by Butterfly (The Butterfly Effect)
Updated 09-25-2018 at 02:00 PM by Butterfly

I am tired of dealing with people who feel they are entitled to something. Nobody owes you anything!



Other than the basics (food, water, etc.) you don't just automatically deserve anything. You have to work for the things that you want.

Nobody is entitled to my body, my attention, my respect, my love. You have to earn that!
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