So I woke up with a vaginal infection, one at the very entrance of my hole instead of deep inside, and I didn't have anything but my bad ideas to do about it.

It felt really itchy so I wanted something drastic to clean it with, salt water didn't seem to be enough.

So I thought about using this specialized toothpaste I have, instead of containing just toothpaste it also has some herbs like thyme in it, which are known to fight off bacteria and infection, so I thought it would...

This journal might be regularly updated on commented on with new tasks that I end up doing to earn the permission to cum, there's always more of those and they tend to be at the limits of my comfort zone.

Based on previously approved hentai images I figured that the censoring rues don't apply to drawings the same way they do to photos, so I will post my doodle of this morning's task that I earned my orgasm with, a picture is worth a thousand words, hopefully it's ok.

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I am shocked that this happened, I didn't think it was physically possible.

This morning Sir kept me denied and I think either to punish me or train me to resist my urges, he kept me giving me 10 mn permissions of watching my favorite porn. Which happens to be stuff I wasn't allowed to watch for months and was craving.

The first 10 mn already felt unbearable and I didn't know how I was gonna keep myself from touching after that. After a couple more I ended up resorting...

Some things I did before that I'm terrified or reluctant to do now :

- having edges while denied, for days/weeks
- serving random strangers (online)
- toothbrush on clit torture
- e-stim on clit torture
- melted candles on tits
- sleeping on the floor the whole night
- sleeping (nap) stuffed with underwear
- anal insertions anything bigger than my finger

On my demand, and for a bunch of reasons that I won't explain here but are very valide for me no matter what others may think of it, I requested of my Dom to do something to keep me more on the heterosexual side of things, and from there I've had rules meant to keep my homosexual side in check for a couple of months now.

I've been punished a lot for breaking them, usually accidentally because whenever my lust for females was activated it's like I couldn't think anymore and remember rules....

Is it common or to be expected to struggle focusing after having somewhat intense play the previous night ?

I'm relatively new to being an online Sub 24/7, and just starting to learn to gradually balance it with work life (didn't work when I first started), play has been introduced very slowly and progressively so this is all quite new.

Two days ago I was feeling great the next morning after my last session, however at work I was clumsy in a way that's very unlike me, making...

When Sir's toy entered the world of online BDSM, she had to establish a starting point for her likes and dislikes and limits with what she knew about herself, even if it would be subjected to modification with more experience and discovery. The people she played with needed something to work with and she needed something to protect her.

Sir's toy considered humiliation a limit while doing so, she knew she wasn't turned on by feeling humiliated or called names or degraded.
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