My fight with Social Anxiety Disorder

For those of you who have read my posts in the past, you might probably have noticed my struggles with life. Things have never been easy for me. I have gone through a lot in life, which of course isn't unique to anyone in particular. Things have been extremely difficult for me for the past five or so months. I had been waking up feeling sad and depressed and not wanting to do stuff that I would normally want to do some days. But my biggest fear was being in social situations. Outside a few of my closest friends and class, I have not wanted to socialize or get involved in situations that essentially I could not control. For good or for bad I was avoiding situations that most college students enjoy.

Last week, I finally went in to go to counseling to figure out what was wrong. I had just kind of assumed that whatever I was battling was depression since that would describe feeling down and out. However, after a long evaluation, I was actually diagnosed with Social Anxiety Disorder. Doing research on it, it is something 12% of humans will go through in their life. It is difficult right now since I am involved with working with other people and children (since I want to be a teacher).

Since I have started seeing a psychiatric, things have gotten a bit better. It is an ongoing battle and there are days that I still feel scared about what I am going to have to do. I avoid a bunch of situations that might not feel comfortable in. I am going to overcome this and not let me effect me going forward. And I will come back stronger than ever.