Leaving GetDare?

Hey everybody haven't posted in a while I know. Been busy, anywho a couple of months back some of you may have known that I had been thinking of leaving the bdsm lifestyle since my first slave and I broke our relationship off. Then shorty after I was actually so distraught that I was thinking of leaving getdare. Originally I thought I had resolved the problem, but such is not the case as that possibility is still in my head. It was kind of revived last night I won't go into details on what happened, but it brought up a painful memory. A while back some person said I should be put in a bottle with the label "Girl Repellent" on it. That insult cut really deep into my emotional self and it still hasn't healed over. Well something along those lines was said last night, and even though it was meant as a joke it still hurt. I am not blaming the person who said this for these thoughts because even before that was said I was thinking of leaving. I think it's kind of jealousy that may be causing this. I mean I see all these people who have huge throngs of followers and I have like maybe three. Sure I have more friends than that but still you know. I mean sometimes I just feel like I'm not making too much of an impact here and inquire why I'm still here. There is another reason why I may be leaving but I'm not going to go into that as it's kind of stupid. So am I leaving getdare well I can't give an answer to that yet but it is in consideration. I do know one thing though, and that is if I do decide to leave getdare I will only do so after I finish my story, I'm not going to be one of those people who abandon without good reason.