Disclaimer: I respect those who choose or engage into a TPE or CIS life/relationship. I know, everyone makes their own choices, for their own lives.

I've recently had more looks into TPE (Total Power Exchange) and even CIS (Completely Irrevocable Submission) blogs and ads, and quite arousing fantasies. Besides the reasons I share with submission in general, pretty similar to what bluedieblud writes about it here, there's another thing:

Freedom and Responsibility, or better,...

Back in february I did around 5 weeks of chastity, with a partner of emlalock. I had been getting quite horny over that time, even doing some tasks I hadn't dared otherwise. Good to know the one side of something.

Because in the past weeks I enjoyed holding the keys for some wearers, asking tasks from them, meddling with their time, even more. The fun is in making others suffer in that denial and chastity way, and making them things do by being in control. Having the keys means you have...

"All the world's a stage ..."

I fantasize about being mistreated, abused, raped, enslaved, and other kinky stuff. But, it IS a fantasy! I don't really like to be. When I do, it's all consensual and involves an end, anytime by my word. It also implies rules.

I also don't want to ruin my social life or career, my fiances, commit crimes, harm myself beyond reason and much more. Most of us don't want that, at least to my expression.

But when I get horny,...

Just finally put the small effort in to answer a self-diagnosis questionnaire. For the German-capable among you, here is the link.

It's about delineation (the German word "Abgrenzung" is what I mean), the idea at the very root we are hindered most by not executing our natural basic to think, feel, and live in our own space and responsibility, because at a past point, childhood or trauma, we learned or picked up to let others break into our personal space without barking and fending...

New year, time to look back and think about what to do with my life this year.

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Inspired by Butterfly's blog entry Hear me ROAR

Around 3 years ago, I had a pretty rough year with three serious visits to the emergency room. Since then, I learned these vital lessons I want to share with you now:


1. We are all broken.

Everyone. At least a little bit. And I don't mean just a little spleen or so. Everyone of us picked up bad habits and unhealthy attitudes from several past generations and human culture. Plus traumatas.
Usually,...

I have been asked to write more about my transition, from a male body to a gamma body. Because I am not a man. Here is me again writing about my journey to explore and discover what I really am, and how I get to perceived and accepted as the person I am, including being labeled and treated the way I want.

So I have a peecock, a penis. It's quite average in size and shape, far away from perfect, a bit hairy, bend sidewards, but all in all a good piece. And it comes with the typical merits...