Writing Task #1 - A Love Letter to ToastyWarm.

This falls as part of my determined effort to write more. TW was kind enough to give me a task though this thread: http://www.getdare.com/bbs/showthread.php?t=206199

Here is the result:

My love, tw.

Forgive me here if I sound as though I have lost myself. As I write these words my heart is racing, my hands are shaking and my lips long to be reunited with your touch. My world is a much darker place since we parted. I miss the warmth you brought me, the safety your arms provided me with, and, most importantly, the understanding of the world you gave me. None of my words can do enough justice to what you meant, so instead I am going to use a quote:

“there isn’t words yet/ for the comfort I get/ from the gentle lunette/ at the top of the nape of the neck that I wake to.”

This would be true, of course, if you were here right now. The song, Lunette, is about the comforts in life; the things which help life make sense and the bad days feel better. You were that. You were my comfort. You were the thing which I returned to when life was unfair; when I needed comfort and love. I miss you, and I can’t wait for the day we are together once more.

Until this day I will keep waiting, and remembering. I don’t, however, like to dwell too much on the past. You aren't my past; you are my future. In that future we will live together. Find a house just outside of the city; one with a big, secluded garden. Somewhere we can enjoy each other’s company, and excited each other with nakedness. Somewhere we can explore the deepest meanings of power exchanges. Somewhere we can, to be frank, fuck wildly.

I want you back here, so that I can call your body ‘mine’. We’ll live our life in a bliss filled with romance and unstoppable passion. I can’t wait at all.

Normally, that is where I would stop, but seeing as though it has been a while since I have been able to communicate with you I thought I’d take the time to give you a much fuller picture of what our life back together again will be like.

When we are together you can be mine again. When we have finished our conversations about power-play and the thrills of controlling someone you can resume being just mine. We will have fun, just like we used to. On those long summer weekends when we don’t have to care about a thing we’ll be able to spend lazy mornings just lying in each other’s arms. Yeah, you’ve heard that written a million times before; therefore I’ll write more like someone who knows, loves, and cherishes you.

There will be so much teasing, just like we used to do. I will torment you with so much pleasure that a well-placed kiss will set you over the edge. I will treat you like the beautiful, but filthy woman that you are and ought to be. That is who you are, and you are perfect because of it. I will make you so wet from whatever I have at my disposal: be it the tip of my tongue or a hard, throbbing cock. I’ll know that you’ll stay on the edge for as long as I want you there. You’ll feel sexy even when I humiliate you, because you’ll see what it does to me. I’ll know how much you want me. You’ll know how much that makes me want you even more.

You’ll be mine to control and humiliate, but no matter what I make you do we both know that I will never push you over you limit. We both know that we will only ever do what excited the other. The best thing we can ever do together is have fun. At the end of every night I want to fall back with you in my arms, laughing. The surge of emotions we will both feel whenever we see each other will be enough to make our days. When we reach the point where we cannot keep out hands off one another again I’ll know that I’ve made the perfect choice in life about who I want as my love: you.

There is something, however, that we both know deep down is even more important than the passion we feel when we’re together. The fact that, even on the days where our passion cannot quite reach the intensity of the sun we’re still glad to be in one another’s company is the best proof that we are simply meant to be together. We will sit, cuddle and watch Netflix on the sofa with our scruffiest clothes on having not bothered to even shower ad yet you will still be the most beautiful, perfect person I know. Even on your bad days you are better than the best of the rest and I want you to know how much this makes me want you back in my life. Come back now, I need you.

One day in the future we will be sitting together and we’ll reminisce about this letter. Hopefully we will laugh too. Then we’ll hopefully hold each other close and thank whatever we can think of to thank that we are together again. My life was perfect with you in it, and it can never be so again until you are back. Our passion, friendships and mutual filthiness will see us play out our lives in a bliss which can only be formed out of utter, undying love. Even when you’re standing in the corner being punished you will know that I love you. Even when crying after an argument you’ll know that I love you. Especially when I make you into a naughty school girl and you get sent into my office for a spanking; then you’ll definitely know that I love you.

Most importantly, throughout all of this, I’ll know that you love me back. Behind all of your perfect prose, kisses, smiles, embarrassment and jokes I’ll know that you love me as much as I love you, and that’s more that can be contained in this world that we know.

Until that perfect day that you’re back here, kisses,

aj.