Denial Again

Hello!

I haven't been here for a long time now, and it happens that I am about to start a new denial phase right now. The last one felt very long, more than 50 days and I'm still happy that I did it.

Two days ago my wonderful and strong Mistress (I have another name for her, but won't tell here) suggested to start a new session, and I got immediately weak. For new readers of my blog: We don't live in the same country and have no possibility to see us. So we are playing in the distance, trusting each other completely.

She demanded writing a new blog entry here, so I think my denial phase will last a bit longer than just some days, who knows...

This is day 2 now. I didn't feel very sexual the last time, so two days of no orgasm isn't unusual for me. She ordered me to buy a new chastitiy cage and I'm reading about the right one.

On the first day I had to watch a prostate massage video, while rubbing my asshole with a finger, no other touching allowed.
Yesterday I had to edge once, today she increased it to two times before sleeping. The edges were very nice, I felt my juice rising and stopped in time, I love it. It is a smooth start for now, but I feel the need for an orgasm rising. It's always the things you cannot have...


December 27th, Friday (total 2 days, 0 orgasms, 0 ruins, 3 edges): My day was busy, it was beer brewing day at home, about 15 liters. In the pauses I looked for a new, metal cock cage. My mistress told me to do this and wear it. Not easy to find one that is invisible under clothes, with included lock and comfortable to wear. Still looking, would be glad if anyone here has a good idea.
I'm curious about my new task(s) today :-)

December 28th, Saturday (total 3 days, 0 orgasms, 0 ruins, 5 edges): My task for last night were again two edges. I obeyed and did it while sitting on the monitor, looking through my collection of sexy and erotic pics. The first one was easy and fast, I could stop before orgasm, the cock wasn't even completely hard. After waiting for 5 min I started again rubbing slowly, this time it was nearly too late, I played until short before cumming with a hard and hot cock. It wasnt't easy to stop, I felt the sweet feeling very near. But nothing happened except one small drop of real cum, whick I licked away from the hand.

December 29th, Sunday (total 4 days, 0 orgasms, 0 ruins, 5 edges): A normal day, one of these between Christmas and New Years Eve, quiet and lazy, preparing for the party, watching TV series on afternoon. I bought a new metal chastity cage and a new glass dildo via internet, I'm very curious about both. My new task for today is to watch two videos with women using glass dildos and one edge, let's see what happens, I will report later.
It was not easy to find good videos with a woman and a glass dildo, but finally found a nice one and watched it in full length of 14 minutes. She fucked herself anally, which I could really enjoy, because I knew exactly how it feels what she was doing. Her orgasm after masturbation was real, I'm quite sure. I was horny afterwards and giving myself one edge was easy, too easy almost, stopping myself was hard and I felt frustrated.

December 30th, Monday (total 5 days, 0 orgasms, 0 ruins, 6 edges): Task for today: One edge and an answer to a personal question of my Mistress that needs time to answer, I won't tell it here. I wrote the mail and went to bed afterwards, performing one edge, accompanied by a sexy chat with Mistress.

January 2nd, Thursday (total 8 days, 0 orgasms, 0 ruins, 8 edges): After a short game pause because of preparations for the New Year's Eve party I received new orders yesterday. My Mistress told me to do two edges, between them watching one of her masturbation videos she sent me. I arrived the first edge fast, although my inner censorship of "no orgasm!" prevented getting real hard. I cooled down a bit and watched Mistress rub her clit to orgasm, full view on her pussy and her beautiful face. I got hard by watching, stroking my cock just gently, that laid in a puddle of precum on my leg. Afterwards it needed just some more harder strokes to edge again, what a sweet feeling! Desperate, frustrated, horny and - in love.
We chatted afterwards, and she teased me more, asking about licking her clit until she cums, then licking her asshole, she knows what I love. She talks about giving me a ruined orgasm one day, but would let me stay denied for a longer time, what resulted in a sweet sting in my stomach. Her orgasms are so much stronger, when I am in denial.
Every day I go deeper into subspace, every time deeper than before. Where will that lead to?

January 3rd, Friday (total 9 days, 0 orgasms, 0 ruins, 9 edges): Yesterday I received the order to watch 20 minutes of fist fucking movies and edge once. I decided for a long movie of that kind and edged - the complete 25 minutes! It was great, I loved it and felt happy and satisfied afterwards, even without an orgasm. My constant horniness is able to give me energy, one orgasm would make me just sleepy and lazy.

January 4th, Saturday (total 10 days, 0 orgasms, 0.3 ruins, 11 edges):
Yesterday I was in a very horny mood and tried to repeat that long edging session for myself, without an order. It turned out, that this was a mistake. I edged on the sofa and suddenly - one stroke too much. I stopped immediately, but could not help seeing my sperm slowly run down the hard cock. Not really much, but I would call it a 30% ruined orgasm. I told my mistress about that and she punished me with a "no touching day", with watching 20 min pegging videos, which I did with no complaints.

January 5th, Sunday (total 11 days, 0 orgasms, 0.3 ruins, 13 edges):
After being a 'good boy' yesterday, I received my new orders: Putting in a buttplug, two edges. The Mistress is increasing my orders slowly, it makes me think that my denial phase might last long this time..., but I love to serve her.
I used the bent butt plug with the prostate teasing end, and edged while moving my hips to feel it bouncing against the sweet spot. As I expected, I had to stop much earlier than before, to avoid explosive cumming. The second time was even harder, I was edging very soon, not getting hard that time. I removed the plug and slept like a baby.

January 6th, Monday (total 12 days, 0 orgasms, 0.3 ruins, 16 edges):
Just a short report today, I don't really feel well tonight, nausea from my chemo pills.
My task for yesterday was wearing the butt plug all night and doing three edges, everything went smoothly. After removing the plug this morning my asshole felt relaxed and soft.

January 10th, Friday (total 16 days, 0 orgasms, 0.3 ruins, 20 edges):
No intense games the last days, much work plus health indisposition on both sides. Yesterday I received a new order of two edges plus ass massage while watching a rimming video. It went well, meaning no orgasm, and I could sleep afterwards.
For me, porn videos very often have hardly any effect, they normally don't make me horny. When they are professional, I even dislike them, never watch these. There are many vids that seem to be private, but I think, the female part is a professional. I need real emotions to get horny, nothing else. So, 99% of the available porn videos don't work for me, and it's very tiresome to find the 1%.

January 12th, Sunday (total 18 days, 0 orgasms, 0.3 ruins, 25 edges):
Today I put on my new metal chastity cage. I should upload a photo to my gallery here. I like it very much, it fits tight, and the heavy solid metal reminds me every second about my state and keeps me dripping. It's not easy to put it on, I needed three hands for that, but I guess it will get better, like with the old cage. I edge every day at least once, such a sweet feeling.

January 17th, Sunday (total 23 days, 1 anal orgasm, 0.3 ruins, 28 edges):
Wearing my new cage quite often, but had to take it off at night, it hurt too much during nightly erections. I also bought a new glass dildo with curved shape to stimulate the prostate. Today I received the order from my Mistress to do two anal edges, meaning to build up two prostate orgasms without cumming. As I never reached an anal orgasm before, I stimulated myself passionately, tried to find the movement of most pleasure, until I suddenly knew I was beyond the point if no return. The orgasm came so fast and intense, I would not be able to stop it at any point. I was happy and confused the same time, it was completely unexpected. I bought the right toy! This was definitely not the last time I played that game. Thank you!!

February 13th, Thursday (total 50 days, 5 anal orgasms, 0.3 ruins, 28 edges):
Back after a pause, 50 days now. What happened? Nothing special. Thd initial phase of two weeks pure excitement and constant horniness changed to times of not even thinking about cumming. My cock was just another organ on my body, no hard erections during the day, and putting on the cage became a morning routine, like brushing teeth. I'm still in daily contact with my Mistress, but she has so much work to do, that I don't bother her with asking for orders. I know that she still loves my denial phase, which gives her many intense orgasms with herself (still we are not able to meet). She calls me her obedient boy and other names, which makes me very happy. I wear the cage as often as possible during the day. Last night I tried it again over the night. Although it hurt 4 or 5 times because of my nightly erections (my cock grows a lot then, pulling the balls down), I didn't take it off and wear it still. I won, and I'm proud of it.
I learned more about giving myself a prostate orgasm, and my Mistress allows milking myself from time to time as the only way to cum these days. It is so much better than just rubbing, it is longer, comes in waves, and I can stop and start again, like multiple orgasms. I'm deep in subspace, and it feels so good.