It's really sad to hear that you are leaving but I completely understand. You do what you feel is best for you and your well being. I wish you all the best in the future.

I'm so proud of you ��

What a positive blog in the end. I'm glad you have made positive steps in your life. I wish you well in the future and hope to read more of you here!

Happy Birthday Ori!

I feel the same way. I need a lot of affection and encouragement and need to be told why I matter. If I don't then I forget.

What do you bring to my life? Joy! I love talking to you. You are funny, cute, spunky and fun.

You are complicated, but that's ok. You are also worth it.

Happy 4 year anniversary!!!!!!

That age old question of what's normal. Unfortunately I'm not sure pee play will ever fall in the bracket of "normal", except for those who enjoy it.
But isn't it great? All of the different forms it can take, golden showers, forced holding, desperation, wetting, humiliation, the list goes on and yet something completely normal that everyone does.

It's great you enjoyed it and as you say, I'm sure it would be great fun to be peed on. And with your comment on pissing yourself, I'm sure if it's humiliation you're after, this will be right up your street!

Have fun

Pee play was in my limits for some time and I never thought it would be something that I would do, but gradually Sam has been pushing that limit. And I have to admit, I did start to enjoy it.. especially when it is her giving me a golden shower, or making me drink her pee (I still can't bring myself to drink my own pee though....) obviously, a lot is the humiliation feeling it gives... (see my blog for more details)

The 1st time was definitely the hardest!

It is not really easy ro become a pee lover, for some reasons. Society does not call it normal, and second you have to get familiar with the thought, later with the view and the smell and then, with the taste. It is a bit like smoking, the first cigarette tastes awful, but after a while you get addicted.
I for myself do pee games for a long time now, more and more, in little steps, but never tried it with another person. For myself I am not ashamed anymore, and I do many games involving pee, including drinking. So pee games have become a normal part in my sexual life with myself. Don't think you are strange, do what gives you pleasure. What other choice do we have?

Ah yes.... piss.... the ultimate degradation tool!

Well, maybe not the ultimate but it's up there.

Next step up would indeed be to been given a shower like that by someone else. Or maybe even multiple people!

We were actually discussing this at work the other day, no one there knows I’m kinky lol. I’m not a fan of golden showers but I could see how it would be somewhat intimate getting peed on. It’s the pee itself that I don’t like. But I’m sure there’s some things I’m into that you don’t like as well. Congrats on breaking some old limits. That would be very hard for me to do!

The loss of a parent sucks, they leave a void that never gets filled, I know from personal experience. But it gets easier I promise over time and you focus on the fun times and events, you have dreams where they will be present, you do things that remind you of your parents, that kinda stuff.

Keep strong, she would want that. If you need to offload or compare experiences feel free to message me.

Big hugs.

This is heartbreaking and I am so so sorry for your loss. Words really aren't enough so I won't try. But I want to give you a big hug and let you know that if you ever need a friend to talk to, I am here. Sending much love!

First of all: *hugs*
Hope this stormy time will go away soon. Remember, this too shall pass!

It's hard to find someone compatible out there! People are bound to let you down and it make you sad. You might find that perfect partner next time... or you might stumble and fall again. Why do we fall? In the words of the wisest butler in the world:


You'll only get stronger from every experience. You'll know what you're not looking for, you'll see the signs. I'm sure it will happen for you, just give it time and keep learning and getting stronger!

From Amsterdam, you can take a train to Duesseldorf. You can visit Koenigsallee (probably the most beautiful boulevard in all of Europe - beats Champs Elysees any day); Benrath castle and Burgplatz.
Then take a train from there to Stuttgart (ard 2 hrs). Visit Koenigstrasse (longest shopping boulevard in Europe) and you can see both the new and old castles. The old castle is a museum, and there is always an exhibition going on. Visit the Stauffenberg memorial (at the place where he was executed by the Nazis). Stuttgart is the birthplace of the German auto industry, so visit Mercedes and Porsche museums. Then, take a day to visit Tuebingen old town and the Lichtenstein castle (if you are here over a weekend, I can take you there).
You can then travel on to Munich (again 2 hrs by train from Stuttgart) and see the "new" town hall (Neues Rathaus), and eat at the Hofbrauhaus nearby. Visit the Marienplatz and the Viktualienmarkt. Then do a day trip to Fuessen to see the beautiful Neuschwannstein castle (the castle that Disney copied in most of its movies) and the Swan Lake that inspired Tchaikovsky.

In the Netherlands you can't leave before seeing the inside of a coffeeshop, the red light district, maybe the "Rijks museum" if you like paintings and me.

Italy is beautiful too, especially rome, even though everything is commenly described by tourist media, it's worth to see Rome, and also the vatican museum.

Barcelona in Spain is great too, it's a great place to shop, always sunny and from what I hear loads of sailors walking around

Check out any country of eastern Europe if you want to get drunk for cheap. Ask for Palenka, it's homebrew and strong!

Skip Belgium

The island Kreta of Greece is nice too, ruins, mountains (dad almost drove us off a cliff) and great food.

Personally, I would try to focus on the countries that touch the seas and oceans. In my opinion they are more fun, better weather, more culture and great food.

Ooh! You're going to Amsterdam! So happy that you'll get to see my country!

My first recommendation is Amsterdam itself. Great for tourists, lots of options for shopping! If you like weed, there are lots of 'coffeeshops' to buy from! There are also some great museums, like the Rijksmuseum and the Anna Frank house, if you're looking for something more cultural.
I also want to recommend Alkmaar, a town about half an hour by train from Amsterdam. There's a cheese market every Friday, starting on March 25th. So maybe you'd be able to catch that! It's a big spectacle.
The spring is also a great time to see the fields of flowers in the Netherlands. You should check out Keukenhof, a flower park. Opens up on March 24th!
There are a couple of fun theme parks too. Madurodam is a park full of miniature buildings. De Efteling is a fairy tale theme park that's very popular.

Hope that's of some use! I'll also tell you that visiting all those countries in one trip is not a good idea!