Hello, gD!

It's been an awfully long time since I've blogged. A few things have happened.

I went to England to see awesome things (including my Almost). And it was AH-MAZE-ING. I brought home so many cool things (fudge and a sparkly leather jacket are among my favorites). And getting to meet Almost and do all the things we had only been able to talk about doing was even better than I thought it would be. There was an awful lot of fuzzy-headedness and in the best way....

... a friend told me recently. Settle down into what?, I thought. I don't feel particularly unsettled now. Ok, my social life is currently on the "unsettled" end of the conventional scale. But I have a slightly obsessive personality. Until I feel that I have explored this wonderful alternative lifestyle I've been introduced to fully enough to have a firm grasp on what part I want it to play in my life and what I want from it, I'm going to continue to focus a majority of my attention here. Will...

I've never experienced subspace, but I think I go into cuddle-space, chocolate- (and other tasty food) space, rope-space, and maybe motorcycle-space. These are some of my most memorable experiences. I won't be able to be quite as articulate about them as I normally am. I'm afraid there just aren't words for some things. And my head gets fuzzy during these times, which doesn't help.

The scent of the chocolate... the deep, rich taste of it... I was lost on a beautiful, blissful trip. I hum and close

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I don't know if I'd say my growth game is strong... but I've changed. I'm not the same person who signed up after stumbling in here through a nipple clamp review. The following are labels I currently identify as and am working on defining better for myself.

submissive: Not a lot of people get to see it, but it's there. My biggest kink is control. But control is a tricky thing....

I’ve had people look at the way I’ve designed my blog page and ask why it’s so childish. “Are you one of those littles?”

“I’m not a little,” I said.

I’ve had people see how easily excited I get and watch me jump around. And later send me a message saying how much they enjoyed seeing me let my little side out.

“I’m not a little,” I said.

I’ve had someone explain to a newbie at a party that my obsession (and sexualization of) with gummies is an...

Follow the rules!

My roommates wanted to watch porn... together. Like a social activity.

We all settled down and I got a couch all to myself (woohoo!)

They put Pirates on. The A/C was on high and I got cold, so I snuggled under the blanket. The porn was boring1 and I was tired, so I stretched out on the couch, rolled over, and pulled the blanket up to my chin. Naptime, bitches.

Apparently, I had committed a major faux pas of social porn...

I just want to understand

Bestiality
-Are there kinky animal trainers? Or do people just... hook up with any random animal? Or is that what their pets are for?
-Do the animals have to get checked for STD's? Are there STD's that you have to be more wary of getting from animals than humans?

Littles (although I've learned a lot from reading what minimarshmellow, who made a "little clubhouse" thread and Mystical Madness, who wrote blogs here and here...