Deny me Forever

It started as a tease. A simple tease given to me by my former Mistress that festered grew and then blossomed into a fantasy. “My name’s Princess Jessica and I want to be denied forever”. The thought makes my dicklet twitch. To be stuck in infinite arousal, destined never to get that sweet release until my balls go blue and my head is swimming in horny thoughts.

I wouldn’t want to know though. The idea of actually being denied forever is so unattainable to...

At the end of 2017, I wrote a blog detailing the things I wanted to do in the following year and was recently reminded that I should really do a follow up to see how I got along with my kinky filth-list.

1. Feminisation - It’s fair to say I took this about as far as I could without breaking my limits per permanent body changes (shaving) or social suicide (makeup etc). I think most people probably think of me as “Jessica” on here and I definitely managed to take this further than expected with

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This would be my final chance to orgasm before a 30-day denial so the pressure was on. After only having one single orgasm since my year-long denial I was pretty desperate and actually finding the...

1 Year, 0 Orgasms

The facts:
Denial length: 1 Year (and counting)
Full orgasms: Zilch
Ruined orgasms: 8 (maybe?)

Well today’s the day, 1 year after my last full glorious cummy messy orgasm. When I originally received 333 days of denial it seemed like an unclimbable mountain. I was inexperienced in denial having done one very messy (ruiny) 1 month spell previously so I was rather assuming I’d have to beg for reductions long before I made anything like...

The difficulty of self-control

A week seems like such a long time when you can’t touch for pleasure. I set myself the challenge partly as I felt my self-control was really struggling after my last ruin (2 weeks ago maybe, after which I REALLY wanted to cum) but also as it’s fun to torture myself occasionally. The nearer the end of my denial gets the harder it seems to be to control my desires, but I suppose after a year that’s hardly surprising.

I wore my chastity cage...

Ah, a frustrating little subby day today as I once again made an appearance on Chaturbate. A slow show was just picking up when I just lost concentration and accidentally ruined yet again. After 6 months with just 1 orgasm and a near clockwork monthly ruin, you'd think I'd be used to that horribly unsatisfying drip of accidental cum but the mental drain of forcing myself to ruin had a much larger effect than I imagined. They're fully allowed in my denial (thankfully as it's going to last over a year...

Gonzalez and Cassandra made another bet, giving him the benefit of counting one complete hour in chastity for 3 hours of denial instead of just 2 within the denial time he does for Cassandra due to this thread, and she may not post the keyphrase DEEPTHROAT anymore (and when she does, it is ignored without substitute or compensation). The keyphrase had been chosen by Gonzalez in the thread after consent on the bet.

If the thread reaches 5,000 posts by the end of Sunday in GMT+1, Gonzalez...