✖✖ Stop! Relax. ✖

[Leopard]

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I have a hard time relaxing, and I know that a lot of others do too. So I tried writing a submissive attempting a relaxation exercise that their dom had given them as a task.

I'm not sure if this will help anyone in any way, but I wanted to give posting it a shot and see what people thought. If there's any interest, I might add other shorts to this thread.

[Leopard]

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[Leopard]

Simple Breathing Task

Breathe out through your mouth, counting slowly to three. Then when it feels natural to, breathe in through your nose. Keep repeating this pattern, concentrating only on your breathing, not worrying about any other thoughts at all. Continue for at least five minutes.

[Leopard]

Lying in Bed

I lie in the darkness. It's not the most ideal place I want to be, but it'll do for now. He knows I'm here, and that's what counts. Because he knows I'm safe when I stay here.
I wonder, if I went wandering, then admitted it, would he carry me back to bed and tie me down, to make sure that I stay this time? Would I feel bad? Or would I be happy?

I shift about – but quietly, must be quiet – restless. I can't sleep. He'd be happier if I was sound asleep, but it's just not happening. I feel bad that I can't give him that, but I can't. I can't change the world, even if I might want to. This is the way things are. Me, awake. Me, wanting to get out of bed, to just run and run and run, until I can't run anymore because every muscle has told me, enough!

But I can't do that either, right now. It's not safe, and he knows that. So I stay, as I'm told. Staying in the safe place. Even when it makes me so restless that I want to scream.

My hands wander, looking for something to hold, something to grip, something to cling on tight to. Looking for anything to occupy them. All they find are sheets, and my own body.

I wonder what I want my hands to find instead. I don't know.

How long can one night last?

The answer to that is simple. Forever. A night can last forever. Do you think the sun comes up all too soon? Sometimes it does – when you're having fun, when you know that dawn brings exile from the city you love, from the lover you love. Those times, day comes so fast you'd think that Time cheated you. But other times? Time cheats then, too, but in reverse. The darkness crawls, the stars above stationary, mocking the fact that there is nothing to be doing but lying still, awaiting the dawn.

Are you bored? Time asks. Good. It amuses me. You're going to lie there bored until you go crazy.

Or until you find a way to cheat Time.

Can I do it? He told me the way. I don't want to listen – I mean, I do, I want to listen to him, but I don't want to do this thing. Still, can I? I have to try. Can't let Time win.

Step One. Close my eyes.

The darkness of my bedroom fades away. It's replaced by another darkness, the darkness behind my eyelids. A darkness I was never really comfortable with. He tells me this is good dark, my private dark, that I can make it anything I want. That it never needs to be bad. Okay. Well running in the dark is good, is freeing. Maybe I can make this darkness behind my eyes the same.

But it doesn't want to listen, and I don't like the voices whispering through my mind. But he had an answer for this, too.

What was Step Two?

Oh, yes. Breath out. Slowly push all the air out through your mouth, counting slowly to three, slowly until it's all gone.

Then breathe in naturally, when your body decides to, in through your nose this time.

This feels too easy, too simple. How can this ever work? How can this chase away the darkness? How can this combat every doubt and worry in my mind.

No, don't ask those questions, keep quiet for now. He said keeping quiet is best. Just concentrate on breathing. Only on breathing.

Another long breath out. I pull my tummy right in as I count out the numbers. One, two, three. Empty.

Breathe in again.

At first the breath comes in a bit of a rush, like I can't get it in fast enough. Like I was going to drown without it. But then the air comes in and I'm back on my bed, no longer sinking. It's okay. I feel the air flowing into my body and everything is just fine.
Breathe out again. Slowly. One, two, three. Keep steady.

Calm. There are questions, worries, so many of them. But I was told not to worry about them. That's way harder to do than say, but let's try this: I know the worries are there. I'm not listening. Because right now, I'm doing what I'm told.

I like it when he tells me what to do.

Right now, he told me to breathe. Out. One, two, three. In, nice and normal and how my body wants to do it.

Is it each time getting slower? Does it matter? He didn't tell me that. So what did he tell me? Focus on what he actually did say. Only that.

He said breathe out slowly, then breathe in naturally, then out again.

So what I have to do is follow exactly what he said, nothing else. Be the best I can possibly be at what he told me to do. He didn't tell me about worries, he didn't tell me about thinking about other things. So I shouldn't be. I should be focusing on exactly what he wants me to. So I keep breathing.

I count the breath out, imagining him telling me to do it, imagining him counting for me. Cradling me and breathing in time, giving me the timing to follow. I follow along, imagining myself getting it just right, so that I can see him smile at me.

Breathe in slow now, knowing he's smiling. Keep it up. Keep doing it. Breathe out again. I can do this much, no matter how useless I feel to him. This, I can do right for him. I can do it. Breathe in again.

Out again. He's smiling at me.

Just for me.

Breathe in. So happy when he's happy with me. When I've done it right.

Breathe out. Not even I can mess this up. One, two, three. See, I did it!

Breathe in, again, repetitive but he makes me repeat things all the time. I can repeat this too.

Breathe out. One, two, three. Just keep doing it. Complete the task for him. Keep going.

Breathe in.

Breathe out. One, two, three.

Sunlight dances over my eyelids. I open my eyes.

It's morning.

[Star Shadows]

I love this story, the technique and the story both left me feeling really relaxed I actually zoned out trying to read it and do the breathing thing at the same time. I think many people on here will be able to connect to the character. It is a super duper story.

[C.K.]

Wows that was amazing, it actually relaxed me and i am shocking at relaxing! I'll be following this! :) keep it up leo! Xx

[daremaster 1]

Wow, I might have to try this. Looking for more!

[Feudal]

Great thread Leo! Can anyone contribute?

[NoMercy]

This is pure beauty! Brilliant!

[ganduman]

I like the concept! Great going!