[LittleEmbarrassment]

Thank u for ur questions

Do you plan on transitioning completely?
Im not sure, i learned to accept me how i am right now and im pretty scared that the result of an operation would destroy more then it fixes. But sometimes i really want to be complete as a women and being seen as this. There is that feeling that i have to adjust myself how the world Sees a woman. So i cant simply answer it with yes or No. Not at the moment atleast.

Are you living as a woman on a daily basis or just partially?
Daily since 8 years now, i even changed my gender and Name in my ID already.

What kind of sex partners do you have, and seek?
I dont have any gender based preferences. Its more in someone treating me good, even If he ist dominant and humiliates me. And ofc the Person needs to have something inside of his head.

What was your first experience that made you realise you were into submission and pain?
Well tbh i had a really bad english as a teenager. Some pornos just got far more attention from me then others. When i translated the titles of this ones there was a whole new world for me. So i tryed it and was falling into the fetisch rabithole

What is the most humiliating thing you ever felt?
My mistress at the time had put me in an amaid uniform and locked it up. Then suddenly guests came and she used this to show me off and kept showing that this excited me. I had to serve her and prepare the food. I stood in the kitchen for almost two hours. When I served the food I wasn't allowed to eat. Only when everyone was finished did she fill the leftover into a bowl and make me eat it in front of everyone. This was especially true at the beginning of my time as a sub, which is why it left a lasting impression.

What is the most daring thing you ever did?
When I was still posing as a man, I experimented with self-bondage. I'm a little at risk when it comes to something like that because I've always gone one step further. At some point I left my apartment in a pink dress and went to a quiet place at night where I handcuffed myself to a tree. I knew that when I reached orgasm I would go home as quickly as possible, but the thought of the feeling of desperation made the whole thing interesting, which is why I threw away the key in the fantasy of having to ask someone to help me Risk that the person will use me. I didn't orgasm because I couldn't really satisfy myself. I stopped and wanted to free myself, but I had thrown away the key. After more than 3 hours of crying and desperately trying to free myself, I managed to break the handcuffs. (Were such cheap China cuffs)

What is the most painful bdsm game you ever did?
Well, I was very masochistic and in intensive spanking sessions for many years. The nastiest thing was my stainless steel crop, which was actually bent from my butt.