[m55uk4younger]

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Well maybe you Getdare readers don't want to know, but back here after a massive personal crisis, if that is what you call it.

I call it trying to end my life, yes seriously, I have attempted twice to end my life and it is good for me that I admit it, to myself and others. I carefully planned it but you cannot allow for chance and fate, no matter how much you plan and tick all the boxes.

The good thing, despite my massive meltdown, I am still in contact with boy A, but now of course our relationship is on a way different level, that is to be expected, is'nt it?

Maybe writing this small update here is therapy for me, getting my thoughts and feelings out of my system, to this screen that does not judge, interupt or have a "duty of care", something I have heard a lot of, from various people I do not know in these past few weeks.

Sir.