Maybe a bit existential, but what I fear most in the world is eternal non-existence after I've passed. A close second is the universe forgetting I was ever there.
In the not too distant past, I would have these violent panic attacks whenever my mind absently wondered onto the subject. I'd find myself in a paradoxical loop, where my logical insight told me "You're never, ever, coming back. You'll be gone till ends of time, and beyond." and my subconscious survival instinct would contradict it. It caused this awful feedback loop.
Suffice to say, after I first really realized all of this, other things stopped being as scary. It's a curse, and a blessing.
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