When/how did you discover that you are submissive?
I discovered that I enjoyed dreams in which I was forced to be naked and assume humiliating position, I was around twelve I think. I also figured out that I liked to daydream about being a slave being told what to do and given humiliating tasks. I didn't know any better and I tried to suppress them (I thought those fantasies were wrong for some reason). It took me maybe 4-5 years (and internet access) to understand that it was a need I could fulfill happily with other people and there was nothing to be ashamed of.
What did you do to develop that?
You mean like acting on it? Online interactions at the moment, I have toys, rules I need to follow, sometimes I roleplay when doing chores. It's difficult for me to purse relationship in IRL at the moment.
How do you find out your limits/likes/interests/expectations?
I like to experiment: I look for things to try online, I give them a try and take notes about what I liked about them, what I didn't, how I could have enjoyed them more. Sometimes it turns out great, sometimes it doesn't but I always learn something about myself.
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