I just did not describe really well our situation that is why there is a confusion. Anyway. I have never done anything she does not like and when she says stop I stop exactly the moment she says it. I am not a douchebag.
I will leave the situation as it is right now which is fucking, yes I said it, fucking good.
I will try to communicate with her more about sex. I want to. But it is not easy.
Thanks all for the advice.