I first understood it fully in Middle School. See, living in the southeast, this kind of stuff is never talked about. As early as elementary school, I had all girl friends. I went over to their houses, and we'd play with dolls, and play make believe kitchen, and even dressup. We'd dressup as queens, characters, sometimes even maids. My parents didn't know any of this. Back then this was before the divorce, and my mom told my dad everything, so I had no one to ask, or talk to. Not until much later. We were even cut off from the internet, because my mother thought it was evil, as it was where my dad got into porn and cheating. So research or talking to people didn't happen until high school really. But I guess the simple answer is, I've always known, but didn't always understand.
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Originally Posted by lotusdriver81
I see that must have been a very difficult time. When/how did you first realise you wanted to be female?
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