getDare Truth or Dare - I came SO hard!

I've been a member here for awhile be today is my first post-I wanted to share this with you....

I've been married for 10 years. My husband is a great guy. But we are very different-he is an introvert I'm the extrovert-He is very conservative-I'm more open minded. He is not as warm blooded as me, doesn't crave sex as often as me, and when we do make love- it's the same theme as the rest of our life: Total opposites. He always compliments me on how I "rock his world"-he loves my reaction to him. For me, he is a considerate gentle lover that leaves me thinking: "this cannot be it!!!-How am I going to cope with this....lack of excitement FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!!" I feel guilty for even saying that. But how am I going to stay faithful to someone that just doesn't share my sense of sexual adventure?

But I have a secret:

For almost a year I been living with this secret. I been watching porn, reading steamy books and masturbating every opportunity I am alone. Too the point where I think I might develop an addiction. and my play of choice is anal. I love anal- I love teasing myself by touching and pressing and lubricating. I work myself up into such a frenzy that I grab any object in my reach to help me reach that release. I can never get enough. I fantasize about how good it must feel to be fucked really hard be consumed by lust and passion. Then later, at night when I lie in my bed and my anus is throbbing- I wish I could have made it last a little longer.

So here is the embarrassing part (I have no idea why I feel embarrass-but I do) I started giving myself enemas. At
first turned me on just watching it- I just had to try is. After trying it (yes I did it DIY style and No I am not sharing that part!) the clean feel was the ultimate "wow" for me. I love the feel of emptiness and cleanliness, especially when I play back there.

Today, I was home alone-the whole day. I vacated my bowel over and over again when I was ready, I placed my little clit vibrator on-(you know the one that vibrates inside you as well as on your clit hands free) I teased and teased myself till my rosebud begged for entry-it was the most incredible sensation. I was on a high and flying. I started to masturbate moving an empty tube in and out of anus. After a few minutes-SNAP- it happened- I came ...SO HARD. the convulsion was so intense I let go the tube in my ass and bended my body in half. I don't know how long it lasted but it was a first for me. When I come to my senses again I felt soaked between my legs, I thought I had an accident but when my hand rubbed over my pussy, white goo was dripping from my fingers. I'm stunned, I still cannot believe that actually happened to me. -for real! It's not a movie trick done my porn stars! it actually happens to real woman. Who knew?

I am off to bed in a few minutes but I am still in awe over today, My dirty little secret-if hubby only knew he married a nympho.....I know its not the same as sharing the experience with another human-feeling skin against your skin and hearing them breath fast as you excite them more. But for now I am my own release and I only have you to tell.
Sweet dreams :-)