Top 10: 2018 Kink Wishlist

I think one of my favourite sub things to do isn't really a kink at all; experimenting. I love pushing myself into new territories; from that fear that accompanies the first step to the excitement of doing something I previously thought wasn't for me. I almost feel a pang of guilt about having limits, like a filthy whore who suddenly decides to have morals mid-sex. I like my uncertainties gently prodded and my fears broken down so I can serve that little bit better. It already continues to erode my limits and push a few dislikes further up the "like ladder". That step into the unknown, and finding something new out about myself, is my favourite submissive thing to do!

A short general list of curiosities that I'd like to explore more in 2018, rated from easiest (and most likely to do) to hardest (that may forever stay beyond me).

1. Feminisation (Begun) - This is something I've barely given any real thought to. I do like to crossdress (the humiliation but also how freeing the "transformation" makes me feel) but, without makeup, I'd assumed this was about as far as I could take it.
   
   But I've since started experimenting (if I'm honest with very little nudging) with more online things such as having my profile girlified and I'd love to experiment more with this side. The humiliation of my manhood slowly being eroded online really turns me on and perhaps even leading to more physical things offline (x-dressing more regularly, perhaps even breaking my "body changes" limit) is hugely exciting.
   (Blog: I want to be a girl!)
   
2. Sleep Naked - This one's an odd one as it should be easy but I seem to have a mental block that simply prevents me from sleeping nude. There's still an innocent part of my mind that finds being nude a turn-on, which means I'm a tad too exciting to nod off. I feel more comfortable nude generally, like how naughty it makes me feel waking up like that but somehow need to retrain my mind to just stop being so horny
   
3. Longer term denial (Begun, ugh) - My previous record denial was just one tiny week, and almost 1 month into my current denial I'm now faced with having to do over 1000 edges before I next orgasm (which could well take me over 2 months). Overall I probably enjoy it but there are certainly some days where every edge, tease or kink-related thing is simply torturing. The masochist in me wants to push that to its limit though, make my mind suffer from the agonising self-control and my balls ache begging for sweet release. I'd like to try longer-term denial (or orgasm control) to pinpoint that limit where my mind & balls can simply take no more, or simply play around in this area more. The thought of not owning my own orgasms is certainly exciting.
   (Blog: I Hate Denial; I Love Denial)
   
4. Longer term dom someone - I'm not sure I'm the most natural dom out there. I do enjoy creating tasks though, almost like a puzzle to find something suitable for the submissive and of course that enjoyment from seeing someone obediently follow every command. I'd like to play around with this side of me more to become a better dom and, preferably, find a little bit of a deeper connection with a sub than merely exchanging tasks and reports (as nice as that is).
   
5. Hidden public - Having done a decent amount of webcam exhibitionism I'd like to push myself to the next level with doing things in public (albeit with a very low chance of getting caught). The risk and vulnerability excite me a lot, and it is my favourite type of porn to watch, but is something I'll need to be gently nudged into as it makes me very nervous.
   (Blog: The Shy Exhibitionist)
   
6. Buy a sex toy - I'd likely be far too embarrassed to do this in person but, thanks to the magic of the internet, my darkest desires are just a button click away. With a chronic lack of privacy, the real challenge is hiding any toys bought though. There's a big part of me desperate for a bit more experimentation beyond household objects though, nothing overly adventurous but some light anal toys (buttplug to give my poor highlighter an early retirement) or rope. Small hideable things to just spice things up a little.
   
7. Bondage Rope Play - This has always been a curiosity of mine but much harder to experiment with household items than any of my other kinks. That helpless feeling and even the imagery just turn me on so I'll probably enjoy it; if only I had some rope to play around with (and then get my head around the ties).
   
8. Make myself cry through pain - Again another of my limit finding wants to appease my dark mind. I'm not even sure if I can be that hard on myself (although plenty of pain tasks do make my eyes water slightly, particularly CBT) I'd perversely like to push myself beyond comfortably kinky pain, through the challenging zone that just isn't kinky anymore to (near) torture.
   
9. Toilet Play - There's something about the degradation of scat/pee that interests me; feeling less than human consuming your/others waste. If only it wasn't quite so messy, smelly and disgusting but I'd like to at least attempt this again next year.
   
10. Enjoy anal - I've never liked anal and I'm not sure why. It doesn't freak me out but just a simple finger up the ass is (almost always) enough to make me instantly soft. When I read other people's enjoyment with their rear end there's a part of me that feels left out. Maybe I simply need to try something bigger, lube more or find the right position. Either way I'd like to enjoy it.

The main thing I'm looking forward to is embracing my kink side more, exploring GetDare's little community and getting to know more about a few of its members (and myself) in the process. I'm also hugely(!) excited to start serving my second Mistress which will undoubtedly push me into areas I haven't even thought of, 2018 sure looks interesting!

Happy New Year to all nice enough to read my blog; I hope it brings everything you wish for, kink or otherwise!